d.Ro.Fla. - Life's Stage

New Year Resolution

2012-01-28T19:47:00.001+08:00

hokies im going to adjust my new year resolutions.

Academic

- GPA 5.0 (sem2)

- dean's list

- scholarship (BCA/Keppal)

Soul Funky

- inspire juniors

- dance beat (top 3)

- funk jam (top 16)

Financial IQ

- investment

- business plan

- financial statements

Be grateful

Be generous

Be gracious

STOP BITING NAILS!

that's all folks!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

it's THE Year

2012-01-07T16:55:00.003+08:00

welcome to 2012
(yea i know its a tad late)

the year of apocalypse. the end of the world.
20th December, 2012
or so they say...

but since we can't confirm if this is indeed true, let's ignore the above paragraph.

new year resolution.
- $100k magically appear in my account
- 5.0 semester 2 GPA
- Top 4 NTU FunkJam
- instep/gip (hong kong)

commitment. (until june)
- academics
- SF JDC
- NTU FunkJam
- suh tyng

as long as i can achieve and complete these goals
i can leave the world with no regrets =D

so, please, until 20-12-2012

on a brighter note, hols are gone and school starting yet again!
this might be my xiong-est sem yet!
8 cores, 5 examinable. 19AUs
yea quite little AUs coz some of them are 2 and 1 AUs =/
i tried to get one more elective but NTU NO GIVE ME! =((

oh wells, its going to be a fierce add/drop period, again.

50 questions that will free your mind (so it says)

2011-12-27T01:40:00.000+08:00

coped the below from http://www.marcandangel.com/2009/07/13/50-questions-that-will-free-your-mind/

These questions have no right or wrong answers.

Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

21. for i would be legal to do what i want. and have the maturity to act on them.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?

never trying. you missed 100% by not trying at all.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

usually, what we do all the time, we won't like it. what do seldom do, we'll find them interesting.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

probably. =/

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?

a bit more understanding towards each other.

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

technically, comedian. figuratively, one that gives sincere smiles.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

doing what i believe in.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

no idea.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

both? but mostly, doing the right things.

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?

listen and comment rationally.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

laugh when you are happy, cry when you are sad.

Would you break the law to save a loved one?

maybe. depending if he/she deserves it.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

often. if you are not prepared to be wrong, you can never be creative.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

i actively find out more about myself.

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

things that excite us differ from everyone.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?

backpacking. responsibilities.

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

to truly let go, i've to embrace it. i've yet to embrace it. =/

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

no idea.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

when i'm impatient. no (none of us do) it just help to release the tension a little bit.

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

worried genius.

Why are you, you?

i think, therefore i am.

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

sometimes. not always. i'm a bastard at times.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

losing touch.

What are you most grateful for?

life.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

this is hard. i rather losing my old memories.

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

not possible.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?

yup. self arrogance and blindness.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

yes. and yes. i learn from it. so it is a valuable memory.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?

being a playful boy. i'm still as playful =D

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
If not now, then when?

future. now is illusional.

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?

exactly.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?

some sort. when friends you know, know what you are thinking and vice versa. awesome.

Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?

evil is the absence of love. religions are victims just like the innocents.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?

no. differ in perspectives result in differ in opinions. but one should know one's threshold.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?

probably not.

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?

more work i actually enjoy doing.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?

some days.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

if it is an idea i strongly believed in, it won't be just a soft glow.

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

yup.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

having a goal, knowing exactly why you have the goal, and working towards to achieving it.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

question 33.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

stereotype due to the education system.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

this is hard to imagine. a lot of things actually.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?

meditating.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?

hmm...

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?

good question. probably not. live for the future, not the past.

Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

all decisions are made yourself. you decide if you want others to make decision for you.

2011-12-25T22:19:00.003+08:00

this has been my best sem thus far. =D

seems like me MC-ing my French and having a solitary life justified themselves.

of course, some may say why the hell do i mug so hard?

as quoted from 那些年，“十年后，我敢保证，我连 "log" 是什么，都不知道。”

just like the actress, i can only agree with that statement, but instead of saying that it is “徒劳无功”

i have a different explanation.

i believe that life is abundant and there are many routes in life.

studying is just one of them. indeed, some of the richest dude in the world are dropout from school.

but even they, went to great schools, or had extraordinary minds.

as compared to the many routes, life offer us, studying is by far (from my experience) the simplest.

studying is simple. whatever the teachers/lecturers teach, you listen, and you mug.

you dont understand, do more questions or ask your respective teachers/lecturers/tutors or even your clever friends. they'll explain to you until you get it (or until you think you get it).

if all fails, there is still wikipedia or google (true story).

i say this with my gut feeling because i did other routes before.

and honestly, studying is by far, the simplest.

all routes require hard work, diligence and a fair amount of IQ + EQ.

and studies is really a no brainer when you compare it with other routes in life.

even if your studies is phenomenal, your first job is probably going to be worse than studying.

so the punch line is this,

"if you can't study well, you are pretty much damned"

of course there is a difference between choosing to do badly and doing badly even though you want to do well.

i chose to do badly when i was in JC because i had absolutely no interest in studies.

and as expected, i did horribly for my 'A's.

i was arrogant and felt that i didn't have to get into university. true story. but a bad one.

that being said, i cant regret my decision back then for if even going back in time, with my mindset then, i would do no different.

since you are already a student, you might as well choose to do well.

but for those who claim they want to do well yet they dont.

something is wrong.

if you can get into a uni, your IQ is no where low or can you be labeled dumb.

find a goal and use that as your motivation.

dont just say that "i want to do well".

ask yourself "why do i want to do well?"

the day you can answer that question, is the day you life will change.

it happened to me 1.5 years ago.

it can happen to anyone too.

find your motivation in life.

answer the questions "why" instead of "what"

after asking "what i want?"

go on further by asking "why i want what i want?"

everyone can get by university,

but to be great, one must be inspired.

everyone can get by life,

but to be great, one must be inspired.

i share this not because i think i'm better than others nor because i feel that i'm above the rest.

i share this because i have been a horrendous student, who tried other routes in life, had little success, and had a changed mindset upon university started.

life is abundant, and studying is just part of life.

once your goals are set, and your motivation pushing you forward,

everything else seems irrelevant.

i chose not to study in Jc.

i chose no "life" in uni.

life's fair i guess? =P

2011-09-11T01:43:00.001+08:00

it is the period again. period.

2011-06-26T01:07:00.001+08:00

i think. i'm losing it.

correction.

i think. i'm realising i'm losing it.

what is it? i do not really understand myself.
izzit my goals?
izzit my destination?
izzit e route?

what matters more?
destination or the route thr?

if you know e destination, but u dun care e route,
you'll reach ur goals eventually. by hook or by crook.

if you know e route, but u dun care e destination,
you'll be on a gd route but nv achieving anything.

izzit possible to hav both?
a destination and a gd route?

even still, it might nt solve anything.
bcoz, ive no idea whr e problem lies.
i only know, thr's a problem.
hmm....

welcome back emo-boy. LOL

2011-06-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

cgpa - 4.22
dropped.

grades nt everything.
and it seems tt im still better than many others.
but it is e fact tt i didnt hit my own goal tt matters.

looking back, perhaps it's coz thr's no exact plan.
e "how to" and "what to".
shall set a full time table. (the human factor)
everything shall be listed.
it'll b a guide, nt compulsory. oh wells.

okies back to sf foc!
and funkjam.
and insinyur dance.
and reunion.

zzz =/

2011-06-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

what did i wanna talk abt?
oh yes.
HAS and Death.

reminder.
okies shall talk abt my hols so far.

it has been, a different one i would say. while i hav my fun on hanging out with my frens, i oso hav qte a few things to do.

- SF programme + others
- SF main comm
- insinyur dance (done i guess)
- funkjam (dance competition)

well at least i've finished watching 大长今. uber nice show! =))

got my ipad2 too! yay! super happy! HAHAS!
tho i tink i might hav gotten e wrong case for it. but oh wells~
at least i hav a free screen protector and a pen to write =)

all's well. i hope.

2011-05-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

511th post. got 5 and 1 in there. not bad. HAHAS!

HAPPY 22nd BDAY TO ME!
(so narcissist right? LOL)

i guess nobody comes here anymore HAHAS! but its okie
i've thought of an idea on how to fully utilize this 6years worth of blog
really blogged qte alot.
with facebook and twitter, thr's really little point in blogging anymore.
talking about your day can be found in twitter.
where u r n where u went can b found in facebook or 4sq.

but i still love blogging. helps me to reflect and think through what i wanna write
if not, write as i think and reflect on what im writing LOL!
(dont make sense huh? =p)

maybe i shld remove e tagboard soon. having alot of SPAMMERS!
(yes you!)

22nd. omg. damn old.
it has been, a very different year i suppose.
getting into uni. started dancing. new friends.
got good grades for once in which im proud of since i put in effort in it for ONCE
LOL! did i mention FOR ONCE twice? =p

i read from a book, it ever says tt people shouldnt reveal their dreams.
coz once they do, it may seem as if they r one step closer to their dream.
but in reality, all talk no action.
so i shall keep quiet about my coming holiday's goals and plans.
shall implement them and see how it goes. =)

having a goal-ed filled life. i guess tt's how i've been living ba.
always chasing after something. maybe not be better or worse
but usually its something new. never done or tried before.
like dance. like studying LOL!
lets hope e latter can last for 4 years >.<
one goal after another. going forward. this a life well lived i guess.

8 days left before my final exams for this academic year.
jiayous!!! =))

2011-04-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

i am stressed.
just 2 weeks ago, i look forward to studying.
i felt relieved that i could actually study!
weird i know but hey, that's what i felt.
this week, i was devastated.
i studied for my physics test but i just cant deliever.
i don't know why.
and i felt terrible.
i thought to myself "am i studying too much?"
surprisingly, e ans was 'yes',
and i was, WTF!
2 weeks ago. happy to study
2 weeks later, stressed to study.
overstudying is e word i guess. tho my mac doesnt recognize it. =p

oh goodness gracious me. what should i do?
with exams so soo soooo nearby.

i gotta fucking get myself back into studious mode!
after 18may. let all hell break loose! =D
less than a month away. JIAYOUSS!!!!

2011-04-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

Joint Dance Concert 2011

it has finally come to a close.
a totally new experience.
DanceXperience!
lol! new word coined by me here first =D

personally, i felt tt e rehearsal was so much better than e actual performance.
but all in all, e journey has been, a rewarding one.
it is not so much of THE PERFORMANCE itself,
but e journey we, SoulFunky, came tgt, prac tgt, supper tgt, sweat, cry, etc tt really mattered.
all in all, we hav came closer as one family.
and im glad tt i joined JDC altho initially i actually didnt wanna to.
and im glad tt i joined JDC despite e fact tt my grades have been affected

i look forward to our nxt performance tgt
and tt we can influence our future juniors, to b better than us
and to up SoulFunky to greater heights.

thank you all very much! =D

2011-04-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

B-
my first B- in my uni life.
i knew i wld get it eventually one day but not so soon!!!
its only my 2nd sem.
according to past statistics,
my results will get DAMN GOOD in e first term,
and downhill all e way =((
no. this cant do!
after JDC, it'll be FULL OUT STUDYING!!!!

JIAYOUS!!!!!!!

speaking of JDC, it's this sat. first dance performance!
im glad i joined soulfunky!
yay~

2011-03-31T01:16:00.001+08:00

JDC is coming nxt wk!!!
kinda excited.
will b thy first public performer as a dancer.
wee~
finally finishing our chero~
now e stress lvl increasing expotentially.
hope all will b well

gotta catch up on my studies.
really cui behind ttm.
havnt even read thru my bio stuffs. ZOMG!!!
okies...
shall REALLY START STUDYING AND NOT WASTE TIME ANYMORE FROM TMR ONWARDS!

mental note.

JIAYOUS!!!!!!

2011-03-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

who m i kidding?

i fucking hate studying...

maybe i should just go and quit sch and do what i want to do.

ok, so wad do i wan to do?
idk. damn im screwed... >.<
maybe i'll use recess wk to figure it out.

hmm... for now, one more quiz. and its OVER!

(hopefully its just my stress getting to me. wish me luck)

2011-03-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

"Don't tell anyone, but on the pagan day of the sun god Ra, I kneel at the foot of an ancient instrument of torture and consume ritualistic symbols of blood and fresh."
Church.
"Open your minds, we all fear what we don't understand."

- The Lost Symbol

nice analogy. so very true. we shouldn't run away from what we don't understand as we fear it, but we should embrace it and find out the real wisdom behind the veil.

okays, was studying philosophy. omg, reading the textbook is so irritating. every half a page, i'll start questioning their viewpoints and arguments and try to critic it. and that's not even part of my test. actually, my quiz is really more of memory work. "what's this person's view on this?" stuffs like that.

its all good i guess. wah gotta talk about today's physics test.

i have to say, im kinda disappointed at myself. i couldn't do alot of the questions!!!
in the end i ticam-ed like 3/4 questions. i was lucky that my grade in the end was good.
but still, e fact is i didnt know how to do? after studying it for so long...
while doing it, i was like, omg! sucks man! this dunno, that dunno.
i was so confident tt im gg to screw this up, i even told my fren tt i'll get a C before i view my grades. zomg... really really REALLY sad... =(

and my digilifestyle werent that awesome too. i GOTTA STUDY HARDER!!!
and smarter too. and more consistently.

i tink im too chill and anyhow le. study mood in a mess. rah! recess week need to chiong and catch up my other subjects. must.understand!

busy life. i tink, this is kinda an equilibrium. when ive nth to do (besides studies of coz) i'll go find something to do. tts wad happened while in NS. tts wad happened while b/w NS n uni. actually, tts wad happened thru-out my life. thr's nv a boring holiday. give me no work long enuff, n i'll'work-hunt'. if no work wans me, i'll create some work. LOL!!! i suppose this will b with me till i cant move my body. but mayb even then, i'll tink of something. ;) welcome to my life HAHAS!

list of things i'm involved in:
Academics (progress???)
SF FOC Programme
SF JDC
Insinyur Dance (done - need to touch up)
AJCAA Plot (done)

and of coz, my dear silly tortoise <3

Cheers =D

2011-01-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

okies...

i wanna be more involved in soul funky.
watching them dance their sweat out, makes me envious.
i wonder why.

today is their competition.
really hoped i was part of them too.

but yet, i know, i hav commitments.
i cannot overload myself n in e end jeopardize everything.

i learned tt in jc. e hard way.
chionged so much for cca, in e end, results suffered.

now tt it shows tt when im serious abt studying, i too, can achieve a gd result.
i'm given a 2nd chance in academics.
perhaps, i think i shld step back n look at things again.

damn it. y do i always feel tt everything is important?
mayb if i hav less emotions i can focus more.
apathy. tts e word.

now im yet again given another chance to be more involved in dance.
shld i take it?

i really need to re-think my plans and all.

relax. focus. step back. think. plan.

cheers =D

2011-01-23T01:56:00.000+08:00

a day more till sch starts. dunno if im excited or wad.
well on e bright side, thr is SF training on mon! =D
yay~ LOL!

timeline
by next week, gotta do up AJ Reunion storyplot with music incorporated and it MUST FLOW!
if not, will have to ask the CCAs to change. which will take time~ RAH!

by next month, at least half of insinyur dance will be up and running! if can complete tt will be best!

must study hard as well! for my 4.5 CGPA nxt sem! WOOT!

SF camp. gotta come up with nice programme by next month too! okies feb is gg to b a killer!
but i must quickly finished all these so i hav time for studies!!! and everything else...

JIAYOUS JIAYOUS JIAYOUS!!!

sadly, i hav to reject many other commitments now.
not tt i dun wan to join, but my hands r really qte tied now. boohoo~

Cheers =D

2011-01-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

501st post.
wow, n counting. =D
perhaps an outlet for me to say wad i wan is a gd thing.
anw i hav something i wanna share

oh yea~ GPA 4.37

my aim was >4.5
im 0.13 points again. if only e 2 B+ becomes A- or 2 A- becomes A. >.<

a confusing feeling i must say.
im nt sad nor happy. it was more of a, "oh i see" kinda feeling.
very monotonous. but well, i shall use a word my fren told me ytd.
'contended' =D
and with my first GPA, i shall make my this sem even higher.
CGPA >4.5
and thus, i'll have to work even harder this sem!
even with e moutain of work to do, i wld hav to jiayous!!! =D

WHOOS!

2011-01-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

dance =D
soul funky chief programmer =D
insinyur GL =D
dance comm ic =D
aj reunion craetive director =D

how did i get into this? LOL!

anw, last few weeks hav been really awesome!
meeting up with frens i havnt met for half a yr at least.
daryl, yiheng, pat.
peeps tt i havnt met for a yr+
izhar, jules
humans tt i still keep in contact n meet qte frequently
peijin, chunli (og nt person)

SF chalet was great! best part (or worst) was e lan gaming which got me ADDICTED to starcraft 2!! downloaded n installed on my bro's NEW POWERFUL laptop.
now he is playing it too LOL!
too bad we poor cannot buy real one T.T

more ppl to meet e coming wk,
kj, sid, fresno (kbox), bin family, mr wang

omg!!! thousand and one things to do, yet only one month. T.T
heng i nv join impre.
while im sad i didnt join, i guess it was e right decision >.< RAH!!

i guess many ppl will say my 'hall life' was qte wasted.
since i dont really hav a 'hall life'.
agreed, since im qte e 'loner' in hall, (room-mate was random and we dont really talk)
and that i do not participate in hall activities~ ihg, dance, etc
true true~ i did miss out alot of fun...
but if i didnt join, i may nt hav gotten closer to ppl tt stay till late night in sch to study.
thr wld b ton of ppl tt i wont b close to too.
i'll prolly b much more of a loner perhaps.

some said tt i was qte dao when they first met me.
true true~
i guess i didnt really wanna to be very sociable bah.
budden, seems like this part of me can nv be restrained nor kept shut off.
some called it my 'true colour' lol~
its my colour alright, just tt i covered it with shades to dull it.

lol~ too chim? hahas! too bad~ =D

random ramblings right off my mind.

tmr will be one whole day to myself at home! yay!
can focus on my storyplot for e mtg this coming sat for AJ Alumni Reunion Performance!
must make sure it'll be so different that ppl that paid it will feel rewarded.

hols ending soon.
im glad i had this break.
to really do what i want to do.
to meet up with all my great frens!
to breathe before my next war begins.

JIAYOUS!!!!

Cheers =D

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/simon_sinek_how_great_leaders_inspire_action.html

2010-12-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/simon_sinek_how_great_leaders_inspire_action.html

2010-12-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

i cant seem to study anything now anw, so here i am at my dear blog yet again.

perhaps it's time for some drofla's random thoughts while being unable to slp last night and during his private bathing time. =D

what's our purpose?

to achieve happiness.

so wad is happiness?

to get wad we want.

so wad do we want?

it's a chicken or egg question.
e paradox of life.

as i buried myself within my notes, tutorial questions and past year papers,
i find myself asking, what m i doing all these hard work for?
e ans, is to get my 1st class honours, so tt i can prove to my parents tt their decisions n their hardwork were not wasted. imagine if i dont do well in uni, how wld they feel...

but as u set higher goals, e stress lvl increases as well.
we hope to achieve better.
its nt all tt bad tho, it's e main reason y we humans can advance till date.
but human advancement r usually jus tt few talents or 'accidents'.
e rest of us? average-d.

perhaps. perhaps not.

happiness is when we get what we want.
but after we do attain it, r we still happy?
maybe... but if tt's all it is, we'll wont be sooner or later~

y count on those tt we dont have in order to achieve happiness?
y nt count on things tt we ALREADY have to achieve happiness?

e former does help in advancement in life, prosperity, success perhaps,
but e latter is wad tt make a difference in our lives. in others lives too.
it allows us to be happy anytime, anywhere. becoz we alr have it.

n guess wads e best thing...
we can have BOTH!
they r not substitutes where u can have one and not e other.

be happy with what you have. really.
gratitude is e word.
and (not but) have a goal as well, to bring urself to e nxt level.

be grateful not just e tangibles, but e intangibles.
for they will not disappear if u truly values them.

im sure we're all excellent mathematicians in counting e tangibles. (im studying econs btw)
and i believe, it's time to start learning what's 1 + 1 in e intangibles.
imo, 1 + 1 is definitely much more than just 2 in e intangible world.

Cheers =D

2010-11-13T16:14:00.001+08:00

Effective Communication Speech (draft)

Good afternoon. My name is Alford and today, I'm going to talk about my hero.
He is one whom I look up to, whom I respect alot, and whenever I have problems, he has the solutions. He is also someone very dear to me. He is, my dad.
'Never give up', 'do whatever it takes', 'plan for the future', are just some of his favourite phrases he often share with me. Actions speaks louder than words, and I can clearer see these qualities in him from his life story.

My father was born in HongKong, 1967. A time where triads roam the streets. Fights, thefts, bribery and corruptions are the norm. He grew up in that environment. Primary school education, although it was being developed, wasn't free. As his family was poor, when he was only primary 3, he was forced to leave school and went out to work to earn extra cash. However, he never gave up education. When he was 17 years old, he was working in the day, and using his salary to pay for his night lessons. He was 17 years old, and was studying primary 3 level. But he was smart, he took half a year to primary 6 and another half to graduate from primary school. He did his secondary 4 level at the age of 22, after which, he studied electronics in an ITE equivalent. He did whatever it takes to make sure he can study. Working in the day, studying in the night. It was tough but he made it through.

At about the age of 32, I was born. And he thought to himself, 'where is the best place to raise my son?' He was planning no longer for his own future, but mine. By a stroke of fate, his boss, then, was looking into expanding his business in Singapore. Hence, when I was only 20months old, I was on the plane, migrating here. My parents, left their families, their parents, their brothers and sisters, their friends, they home, came to a foreign land, with major language barrier, for the sake of raising their son here. Hoping for a better future.

I can't say that I'm better off than all my cousins back in HongKong. Most of them in my age group, stopped studying at the age of 19, 20. I might not have been able to come to NTU as a matter of fact.

My father, in his late 40s, started to have quarrels with his boss. He knew that he would be fired sooner or later, and that his qualification back in HongKong can't make it. At the age of 44, he studied Electrical in Yishun ITE. He took 2 years to complete the course. After he left his previous job, he was almost immediately hired by Kong Guan Pte Ltd, working as a technician to fix steaming machines, those that house your 'cha siew bao', 'siew mai', chinese buns.

And now, he is in his 50s, and he is faced with another dismissal. Just 2 months ago, he took up a taxi driver course. The language barrier is overwhelming for him. Vocabs like 'road-hoggers' and 'tailgaters' are very foreign to him. He often SMS me if he don't understand. But he never give up. Four days ago, he took the test. The result is not yet out, but we're keeping our fingers crossed. He did say that even if he fail, he's going to re-take again. His never-say-die attitude never fails to amaze me.

Well, that's his life story up till now. He is exemplary. He didn't invent the light bulb, he didn't discover E=mc^2, but he showed me what it means, to be a mature and responsible adult.

'Never give up', 'do whatever it takes' and 'plan for the future'.

2010-10-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

it's 2+am. and im doing my stuffs.
i rmb e time back in JC, when its 2+am, i wld be doing my stuffs too.
but back then, it was council stuffs.
now, its hmwk.
i'm still qte amazed at myself for being so hardworking.
okies enuff abt myself.

dance is my new passion.
thanks to engine camp finale, when i was 'crowned' dancing king
it kinda raised my confidence on dancing.
becoz of tt, in SF camp, i was naturally 'sabo-ed' up again.
nt getting first was understandable.
but getting 2nd was totally unpredicted.
it threw my confidence to a new high.
tho, at times i still wonder if dance is something tts for me.
no doubt i like dancing. but i wanna to be gd at it.
i like how dancing can be a grp thing.
a dance crew and dancing tgt. tts all nice n cool =D
its like band.

[alone, i shine. together, we blaze.]

hmm let's see...

ajcaa, reunion 2 - creative director
insinyur - gl, dance comm
soul funky, foc - ???

HOW!!?? arggh...

2010-10-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

study vs fun vs commitment

can commitment of studying be fun?

i have my own commitments. to studies, to my friends, to my parents, to you.

i want to combine studying and fun tgt. and i feel i am quite successful in it.
considering e fact that i never really studied hard before.

but there is e other kind of fun. those that doesnt include studies.

between this type of fun and studies, it seems that they are always inversely proportional.
i wonder why.

and indeed, after not studying for 2.5years, i'm stressed.
i suppose many others are feeling the same.

i hav quizzes this week. CA.
last week, while studying,
i felt regrets.
tt i cld and shld hav worked harder whilst in JC.
perhaps things wldnt be as bad as now.

studying. what's that?
throwing everything inside my brain n vomit them out?
understanding and applying?
smart studying = grades good?
so studying is to get good grades?

do the above really apply?
do i believe in them?

i don't know.
i have no answer.

all i know is...

i need to study.

2010-09-28T08:54:00.000+08:00

some says that 'life is short'
perhaps too short to do all e things we want in life.
however, i feel like living once is more than enuff for me.
when im in e latter perspective, i feel tt i can live life more
instead of grumbling how short life is, once the idea that life is really limited,
we find ourselves more focused, doing things tt matters more.

the best things in life are free.
making others smile,
forgiving others (and yourself),
love unconditionally,
and many more.

since im such a stingy person,
im indeed very forfunate, tt all these impt things r actually free.
hahas!

also, once we hav such a perspective, tt life is limited,
we can see tt its not just our own life,
but others as well.
hence, we'll treat others better,
forgive and forget can happen more frequently
as we do not wish to die with regrets.
or for others to die with something unsolved, unfulfilled.

basically, don't take things for granted

Cheers =D

2010-09-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

4th week in NTU.

im getting used to e pace already.
at least i can finish my tutorials on time.
so much so that my friends are calling me a 'mugger'
OMG! imagine back in sec or jc, when i dun even study at all
(until e last moment)
perhaps, i m indeed a changed man. HAHHAS!

e road ahead is dire,
but thou shall persevere until the very end.

i hope this 'mugging' spirit can stay with me throughout my uni life.
best is if it can be elevated n increase in intensity and frequency =D

uni is afterall, a place where i study.
uni is afterall, e reason my parents brought me over to sg.
i shall do my utmost best to do well

the future that holds, matters not.
as i shall pave my own road now,
that leads to a GREAT future.

jiayous drofla!
jiayous friends!

Cheers =D

2010-09-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

NTU.

first week of lesson has finally started. lectures to be exact.
tutorials coming this week.
and i finished my maths and phy tutorials. (at least those that i know)
left with chem, econs and computing.
econs... shucks...

'getting back into studying mode'
zzz... at least not for me. coz...
my previous 'studying mode' aint really so much 'studying'
i think i gotta rewrite my understanding of studying mode.

stressed. yes i am.
many qns shld b qte simple but it is taking me just far too long to understand and apply e concepts. lectures are as usual boring. moreover, its damn fast in uni and i cant exactly catch up with this pace man. rah! i really wonder how i can survive this sem.

'seek not to understand so as to believe, but believe that you will understand'

harder said than done. LOL!
but i'll try. no i must! aiming to ace my subjects!
JIAYOUS ALFORD!!!!

Cheers =D

2010-08-25T01:02:00.001+08:00

soul funky!!

my 2nd camp.
it was really different from insinyur.
as e purpose of this dance camp is really for those who are interested in dance, and want to know a little bit more about dance.
its my first time gg for dance lessons!
omg, its really tiring! hahas!
i've seen yeeyan told me how tiring it is, but to experience it is another matter altogether...
i've always wanted to go for a dance lesson
but e price more often than not, puts me off...
im glad i joined soul funky!
n learn more about dancing, especially locking and popping
its not as simple as it seems HAHA!
moreover, i like e way whr e instructors tell us about e different histories of e various styles n moves.
it kinda makes me feel connected to dancing.
e 'i know what i am dancing' feeling. awesomeness!

so is dancing really for me?
i know not.
what i know is that, i do enjoy dancing, moving my bodies ard.
but to take dancing seriously, is another matter altogether.
i wonder oh i wonder...

but nonetheless, this post is ABT SOULFUNKY!
another post shall be dedicated to my own 'yes or no' questions...

e ppl there were great! i mean, really! since most of them has a passion for dance, when passionate ppl r tgt doing e things they r passionate abt, its really awesome!
its like it will exponentially bond ppl and elevate e excitement and fun all together!
NICE!

2010-08-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

few more weeks to start of uni.

multiple feelings.
excited
scared
happy
stress
fresh start
deep breath
mixed emotions.

goals are set.
plans made.
determined, for now.

i wonder how long this determination will last.
for once in my life, i'm going to prioritize academic to be first.
i want to study, to give it my all.
i do not know why, i only know that's what my heart tells me.
this is what i want.
i know my friends will go, 'yeayeayea....right!'
but... heck, i know can le.
tho i really wonder how long this determination will last...

pls guide me n push me back on track if i ever stray

amen.

2010-08-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

SKINNY!!!

i've heard many ppl telling me that i've became skinnier.
but from e 1st person pt of view, i nv tot it was a REAL issue...
until a few days ago.

somehow, while looking at myself in the mirror is a routine >.<,
that day, i saw myself really really skinny!
like omg! as compared to my NS days...
it a HUGE difference!!!
tt really put much negative emotions into me...
RAHH!!!!!!

i had a shoulder injury, and e doc asked me not to exercise for 6months!
zzz... im in my 5th month...

once i get into uni, im sure to exercise back to a regular basis!

think positive! once my shoulder is healed completely, i'll hav more than enuff chances to get myself back in shape! rather then spoiling my shoulder permanently.

cheers =)

2010-08-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

while going home today, i saw an uncle searching for unwanted 'cans' from a rubbish bin at a bus-stop.
this is not the first time.
i've seen others, aunties and uncles alike.
but more often than not, i'll just leave them as it is, never really thinking much after seeing it.

however, today, somehow, it struck onto me.
the idea of me possibly doing such a thing. or even any friends of mine doing such a thing.
would that be possible? i'm sure even that old uncle never thought that he would have to do such a thing when he was still young. so what happened?
no, i didnt go up and ask him.
i did some wild guessing but that's not the point of this post.

the main point is, this old man, despite his age, is still striving to survive.
he would go all the way, to even grab rubbish from the bin, to collect that few cents just so he can live for another day.
i really admire such strong will to live.
perhaps, he didnt had the education, perhaps, he was cheated off his money, perhaps...
whatever happened, isnt important.
what's important is the will to do whatever it takes, to continue living.
many would have given up, and maybe, head over to a old folks home where others will take care of them, providing a shelter over their heads, foods on their plates.
yet these old uncle and aunty keeps fighting against all odds.
and they survive.

i really look up to them at their strong desire to stand on their own two feets.
using their own hands to crave open a way to live.
some may see it as stupidity, or even stubbornness to the point of being silly.
i see it as the never-say-die spirit, the strong determination.
something that i, really do lack.

i must learn to persevere and be more strong-willed to my own desires.
i have the privilege to study and gain knowledge with great friends.
i will succeed!

despite the stench you gave off, old uncle, i salute and thank you.

cheers =)

2010-07-18T16:13:00.000+08:00

insinyur 2010 - combined engine camp

this is indeed, a rather different camp as compared to those others that i've ever went.
from e start, i actually wanted to keep a low profile in my uni years. wanted to really focus on my studies and not have 'too much fun' per se... tho it didnt really work out for me as my 'true character' gave away in e end... Zzz...

my grp was ChunLi and the camp followed the Street Fighter theme. i really like my grp as everyone were enthu n wld cheer loudly, and participating in all e games, including forfeit rather 'sporty-ly' hahas! e only thing we lacked was initiative as most of our GLs wld say. however, i wld rather an enthu grp who may lack initiative (which can b instilled via e GLs) rather than a grp with many initiative (which may lead to arguments) but not everyone is as enthu.

thr were many part of e camp whereby it has been a first time experience for me. memorable may be e right word tho whether it is a good memory or a bad one is another thing altogether.
besides e usual telematch and beach games, we had smthg called e 'mua-ji' and 'initiation night'

mua-ji is an activity whereby all e campers will lie down along e beach, superman style, shoulder side by side, and the camper from one end will roll over e other campers to reach e other end. e whole process took us over an hour long. (i guess) due to my shoulder injuries, i had to frequently stop n massage my shoulder. some seniors were very nice to help me massage too! HAHAS! shiok =)

another 'special' event was initiation night. whereby all e campers get blindfolded n literally 'bullied' by e seniors. we were drawn on, with flour, chili sauce, etc 'sprinkled' onto our bodies. and for e first time i had e army camo-cream placed onto my face. e end result wld b rather hilarious, if u were e 2nd or 3rd party. we had to go to various game stns to play. some of which includes, a tug of war pulling a tree (which we only knew AFTER e camp), Trust Fall whr u fall n ur grp member will hold onto u (but e diff is that we are freaking blindfolded which made it really scary). but oh well, its all in e name of fun. =)

we had mass dance with e song Gee. it is a couple dance n e nice part is tt, u get to change partner. (nt tt my partner wasnt gd!) its just tt it was more interactive n funny in a way. perhaps it is better than aj Mambo No. 5! HAHAHS!

next, i wld like to highlight our Amazing Race. it was indeed AMAZING! we had 6 stn to go to but we only went to 3!! hahas! e whole grp took our own sweet time to walk to e various stn. took many pictures. and literally enjoyed ourselves. while other grp was rushing to e different stations and eating fast food for lunch, we ate Swesons (1 for 1 lunch meal). hahas! how awesome is tt! n since my grp is kinda relax relax one, we had a GREAT time together. it was like an outing to me rather than an amazing race actually. it really echoed e cheer "friendship no.1, competition no.2" in chinese it is “友情第一，比赛第二！” hahas!

on e 3rd day of e camp, i was arrowed to be e cheer ic. n since i had some cheering experience in jc (duhh~ CCAC LEH!!!) together with e help of QiuLi and e GLs, we came up with our creative cheer. which was used in e cheer fight. we got thru e first round and was e final 4 but ultimately, we didnt win e champion. however, it had been a great experience n i still tink our cheer top e rest! =)

last but nt least, SP night. my nickname was Mr Kiasu.
to cut e long story short, on e 1st night, we met our SP however, on e actual SP night, i didnt meet my original SP. why? i oso dunno... Zzz..
anw, back to my SP, MuFeng. she is e kinda fierce, sporty but a nice girl overall.
i had a great time chatting to her as we didnt appear to be as awkward nor were we either those 'quiet quiet' type. beside e hitting me part, overall it was all good! hahas~

during e SP night dinner itself, i was sabo-ed up on stage TWICE! that's where my 'low-profile' dream was tarnished. at least in sch of engine. e first one was whr e 4 guys had to act as a band n gg crazy while we were holding brooms, a toilet pump and e drumset made of buckets n plastic plate acting as e symbols. i went a little bit high thr, n was kinda singled out. >.<

next up was e dance competition. to cut e story short, while competing with 9 other guys, i came up top n became e Dance King. RAHH!!!! n prior to this, i really tot i did a GREAT job keeping my 'enthu-ness' to a all time low... haizz.... alford ah alford...
but nonetheless, i really enjoyed n had fun =)

this is all for e programme side.

i wld like to take this opportunity (not that they'll read this) to thank my GLs and e other seniors for really bonding us together, teaching us cheer, bathing only after we have all bathed, which is usually ard 3, 4am. slping less than us but waking up earlier than all of us!
personally, i tot they did an AWESOME job n i really cldnt tink of any better GLs than them.
they are namely, Joseph, Gare Rern, Jian Wei and Fangyi. other seniors includes, John, KarWai, Violet and many many more!

i really had lotta fun, learnt alot of 'is-this-a-string" games, new cheers, new experiences, and most importanly, new friends!

Thank you all for e wonderful camp! =)

2010-07-06T13:06:00.000+08:00

our actions reflects our thoughts.
how true is that?
but do we really know how that particular thought has transpired?
what were the thought process that leads to the final conclusion?
the intermediate thoughts.
emotions play a big role in these intermediate thoughts.
how we feel at that moment. how we felt then.
however, more often than not, our final conclusion is fueled by the emotion of, how we should or might feel in the future.
and that, will cause a certain action to be taken (including, not taking an action is an 'action' itself in this context).

there's no right or wrong, there's only,
how much do you know about yourself?
how truthful are you to your own truth feelings?
is your action a real reflection of your thoughts, of your feelings?

for those who wants to know what exactly causes our own actions, we have to find out what our thought process are and what are the emotions, of the correct time, were fueled into the thought process.

humans are the most well developed logical animal on earth. and perhaps, so logical, that we evaluate everything in our brain without really understanding what we are evaluating. hence, an illusion of thoughts and feelings are self-created from our resulting actions.

random rubbish rambling...

2010-07-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

anger clouds our thoughts, and often we make mistakes when we are angry.
controlling this emotion, harnessing it and use it to our advantage as a motivation is so much easier said than done.

stop self destructing.
step out and take a look at the big picture.
sort out the piorities.

there's alot of nice quotes or rather, post-it notes on this blog.
best of all, its done by a singaporean! i'm so proud!

gdnites~

2010-06-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

went over to ecp today morning to check out bare your sole with tortoise
kinda reminds me of council days. tho i prolly wont b able to have e chance to plan something so big.
thinking back, i've indeed came a long long way...
back then, i was always talking about starting a event management company.
i wld really love to see that dream come true.
it IS still part of my dream. perhaps it is easier to join one then to start one.
yea... maybe i shld join one to gain experience before i make my own mark.
y didnt i ever tot of this before.. hmm...
*shine of light*

after which we left for bishan where tortoise had breakfast.
and i went ahead to gongjiao for bball with alvin wilson zj n gang.
at e mrt i met dustbin... he was heading to opposite gongjiao for soccer.
walking to cathigh, with dustbin, brought back much much memories..
we've walked that path since sec1. tgt.
9 years since e first time we walked there, e same path..
now that really brings back memories... much longer than tt of e above paragraph
lols~ indeed... a long long long way~

often ppl says 'change is the only constant' and 'things always change'.

i agree with e former but not e latter.
coz i believe tt change is indeed e only constant but things do not change.
humans change. i shant dwell into e topic and shall jus leave it as it is for u to infer.

my hair is in a mess n i really need a haircut soon.

2010-06-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

perhaps i've havnt been angry for a while...
hence while i was asleep, whoever is incharge of dreams tot that i shld get angry while dreaming.

and so i did. i've nv gotten so angry before. this is perhaps one of the worst i've ever gotten... omg... imagine u r angry while dreaming... wth right? hahas n i can rmb everything so so sooo clearly.. thinking abt it jus makes u angry.. wth! zzz

but thk god it is jus a dream. n it wont ever come true... oh my goodness... that was a really bad dream i must say... shall just note it here.

anw i've just completed e night ex for abcamp 2010! not really just la but rather form last night. walked form 2105hours to 0545hours... about 8.5hours! from AJC to fort canning to marina barrage. e view there was FANTASTIC..
it was perhaps one of my first time seeing a real sunrise! omg... n im glad i brought my newly bought camera (FZ-35) there as well.. =D

awesomeness =D

that's all folks... byes

2010-05-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

thy was packing up my cathigh n aj notes, hmwks, tests, etc
4yrs in chs
2yrs in ajc
whole chunk of papers
i've left them alone for over 2 yrs now
but as i was thinking maybe i can use them in uni again, i tried to pack them
i looked at e papers one by one
and suddenly i 感触良多...
i wonder oh i wonder...
what have i been doing for e 2 yrs in jc
hav i really gained anything out of it?
was a council a gd excuse?
did i really gained much from council...

but like wad tortoise said, it can be a gd thing too
to reflect n hence treasure more of what we hav
and what we gg to do...
in this case, i'm more certain tt im gg to study well for uni
im gg to do all my best, to go all e way for my studies
JIAYOU!!!! =D

2010-05-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

make up your mind, it'll be easier to continue doing something rather than starting to do something. so start doing.
that's what i read from the book.
i suppose it is true to a certain extent, not that we can actually calculate 'difficulty'.
it is just that, it didn't state that the difficulty in even continue doing something is actually already very difficult.

this is weird...
i'm able to do things that i'm passionate about but it seems that my passion dies very quickly.
i feel that the drive within me is faulty or something.
i'm so into doing something that i can spend days and nights just doing the same thing over and over again but up to a certain point, my interest die.
things that can keep my interest is very very little.

where does my interest lies?
what's the thing that keeps me moving?
i feel like i'm a stranger to myself at times.
i need to re-calibrate myself a little.
keep me going.
i need to stay on a track for a longer while.

its a good thing that this applies only to things and not people.

ganbette drofla!

2010-05-09T15:31:00.002+08:00

since i was five years old, i always had a secret dream,
i wanted to have a birthday party...

i remembered that when i was only 5, i went to this birthday party, if im not wrong it was catherine's. i thought that it was superb awesome and would really really love to have one~
however as 1st may is always the "exam" period, i was never able to have one.

on this 21st, i fulfilled by childhood dream!

i can't tell you how happy i am, and shagged...
but all was worth it =D
i suppose this is one of the first life-long dreams that have actually been fulfilled!

i would like to thank everyone who made an effort to come for the party, even if it just for a moment, and to be part of my dream! especially when i've my great friends, pals, bros, family, and of coz you!

thanks tortoise for preparing e sketchbk, getting e deco, helping me to get e artistic side of e party done up. i didnt really expected e results to be so awesome and cool! i totally loved it!

a few gifts that i have to highlight!

hz, kh n i (with wq chipping in) went to bugis to shop for my bday present. it was e most enjoyable thing to do. i was like "this is nice, i want this" n then i looked at them pay. WOAH! i felt like a happy little kid! i was literally hugging my presents from them! e feeling was pure awesome-ness!!!

daryl, pat - for the 'drofla' t-shirt. from ministry of press, very high quality. if im nt wrong its from american apparel. e font, colour everything, would make you want to have one! HAHAHAS! when i saw it, i was so totally surprised and felt so touched! thank you bros!! =))

kj and class - for e gundam 00! when i saw e box i tot it would be it! haha! i was actually wondering if any1 actually remembers it. n when i saw it, my heart almost stopped! haha! no tears tho.. but i was very very touched tt kj actually rmb-ed. hahas! thanks!!

church mates - adidas watch. it has a very sporty look! kinda complicated to use but heck, can read time can liao HAHAS! really appreciated it =D

there were other gifts tt includes,
mini swiss army knife
shirt
t-shirt
books
empty box!
vouchers
bag
mug
cologne
bleach ichigo's swords collection

and of coz e sketch book! from e beautiful art works to e illegible hand writings, e words, e well-wishes, e signatures, is what i'll treasure for e rest of my life.

small man, small dream, many many big thanks!

2010-03-03T13:06:00.002+08:00

small man, big dreams
dreams => reality

goals set, values implemented, action required

discipline, communication, belief, expectation, motivation

2010-02-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

typing for this blog...
once again...

i've been too full of myself
when ppl ask me what do i want in life
i can say things that make ppl 'wow, he knows what he wants'

when e familiar becomes unfamiliar, what should we do?

another way to express that, by a quote from a famous person

'it is not what we don't know that destroy us. it is what we know for sure that just ain't so'
- Al Gore (an inconvenient truth)

i say i know what i want
and with that, am i being myopic with my thoughts? with what i see?
shld i persist with what i am doing
'doing whatever it takes' DWIT
and try and succeed in it?
im heading towards a risk takers path
n its just no longer 'safe'

i need some time
i need to take a step back
understand where im coming from
understand where im heading towards
and then go all e way again!

i dont mind failure
i mind not learning anything from it

i dont mind sadness
i mind not understand why i am

i dont mind not understanding others
i mind not understanding thyself

ahh... now i rmb...

e term is called, self-reflection...

cheers (:

2010-02-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

Tmr is my last duty. Half a duty to be exact.
I feel that at this moment would be the best time to do a little summary.

6 months of Emergency Rescue Specialist Course.
16 months in Bishan Fire Station
Attended to
- rubbish fires
- rubbish chute fires
- electrical fires
- multiple point of origin fires
- factory fire
- suicides
- oil spillages
- cement spillages
- unattended cooking
- locked door
- road traffic accidents

That's all I can think of right now.
It has been sensational and rewarding experience for me.
Although the culture wasn't something I ever experienced, I got used to it and blended in.
Understand and seeing moments I never had.
The idea of team player and leadership never meant as much as life or death till now.
Being OI/C and taking up responsibilities, doing REAL-WORK, was a taste of the real-world jobs. Of course, here still more relax :)
Making friends, good friends, helping me along the way. Thank you.

A short summary of what I had for the last 2 years of my life.
Words can't describe the exact adrenaline rush nor fantastic experiences.
Hence, I'll just leave it as it is.

Finally, instead of shouting ORD!
I shall exclaim, I SURVIVED! =D

2010-02-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i see/hear this paragraph about friends

Friends are those that check when their calender is free and ask you out
True friends are those that tells you they are free before they even check their calender

For a long time, i felt that it was true. Those that will head out with you no matter their own circumstances are true friends.
However, now, i feel that it is just a very selfish way of thinking.
If they are really your true friends, shouldn't you be concern of their activities?
Find out what's more important.

I feel that,
True friends, are those, that have not stayed in contact for a while but not distant.
True friends, are those, that may have distant but when meeting up, there's no awkwardness.
True friends, are those, that knows all about you, yet are still your friend.

And I'm glad to say that I know of such friends.
Friends whom despite the lack of contact, it doesn't mean that the friendship has broken.
Friends whom I've argued, yet still able to smile at each other.

You don't have to meet up every now and then to be friends.
You don't need to ask how each other is doing to be good friends.

True friends know that, despite not meeting up, not contacting one another, they are still friends.

The feeling of just one meet up, one SMS, or even one IM conversation, yet being able to bring back all the past experiences, feelings all at one moment, that, feels just so good.

"Friendship needs no words..." -- Dag Hammarskjold.

Thank you to all my friends. I may not say it but I really do appreciate your presence in my life.

2010-01-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

it has been a loooong time since i last felt like this,
i looked up into e sky tonight, and i saw shinning stars
i looked into one of e stars... staring into it...
suddenly, i felt so minute, so insignificant
and i had to get out of it, i want to be recognized, to be acknowledge
to know that i made a difference...
or so i always thought...
that little star, from millions of light years away, shine brightly in e dark
of all stars, i was only amazed by this one
of all things that can happened, i looked into e star for e last 30mins...

my mind is in a mess now...
gotta spend some time organising them...
relax alford... things will sort itself out...

take care my friends... (:

2009-12-31T23:34:00.003+08:00

2009

End of 2009

the second decade of my life has passed!

the most awesome life changing decade i would deem

follows are the main highlights here n there

Catholic High School (Pri)

EM1 -> EM2

PSLE

911

Huazhi! Yong Wen!

Catholic High School

O Levels

CHSSB - Gold 03

CHSSB - Gold with Honours 05

Japan Exchange

Japan Performance - SOLO

Prefect

1-1, 2-1, 3-6, 4-6

Yi Heng! Kes! Bryan! Pee Sheng! Keng Wee! Mark!

Anderson JC

23rd Student Council

AJCSB

Distinguished Service Award

300+ hours CIP

ABCamp Welfare Head

Movie Fest 2 OIC

PAE 0606, JAE 0606

A levels

Daryl! Patrick! Peijin! Suh Tyng! Julianah! Izhar! Huimin! FangQing! Ke Jun! Sidney!

Singapore Civil Defence Force

29th ERS

Rama! Huddy! David! Sun! Daniel! Qi Hui!

Bishan Fire Stn

Fight FIRE! Saved LIVES! (:

Tuition buddies!

Church buddies!

A decade with 3 major exams

4 different schools, including CDA (lols!)

1 chance for REAL real life experiences

friends that came into my life

friends that remained

friends that distant

fell in love and fell (HAHA!)

went out on dates =P

found what i like to study (for the first time in my life)

starting my own business

became more financially aware

read loads of books

learnt to kbox!

learnt to play pool!

learnt to play basketball!

learnt playing a trumpet!

and so many more...

this has being one of the most exciting and roller coster ride decade ever!

the next decade... i look forward to!

it'll be where officially schooling stops

and I will enter what the adults called, the REAL WORLD!

cant wait!!! embracing the new year filled with hope! (:

ONWARDS MY FRIENDS!!! Stay happy and healthy!!!

CHEERS :D

2009-11-22T02:01:00.002+08:00

i think i finally got it
what it is that irks me for my past 20yrs of my life
what exactly was the reason why i feel so out of place
why is it that I've always felt a torn within me
something that everyone tells me that it is good
everything around me that says that it is impt!
it is no doubt that it is wonderful, excellent
but just that i cant figure it out... until now...

thank you, education!
or rather, school education
for teaching me everything that i need to know to succeed
whatever thy has taught me,
from perseverance to critical thinking
it has serve its purpose well
theres no lie about how great education can help us
in having a gd lifestyle in the future
for it is able to land us a gd job,
if we can get all the certificates

it teaches us stuffs, which will enable us to find gd jobs in the future
having a gd pay, gd promotion, gd life
this is all so so true
but a job is something not i want...

i do not want to be a employee
i knew tt since young
i wanna to be a employer
a biz owner, or a biz partner
something, that education never teaches
it will never teach us how to earn money
but it will teach us how to land a job
it will never teach us how to be a boss
for they need quality employees

let me put this straight
school education IS GOOD!
for it gives us a better life
but it will never teach me how to be an entrepreneur
thanks for all the critical thinking
allowing me to find out what is the one thing that makes me feel so uneasy
for what i've been doing, is in direct conflict with my own wish and wants
it's like someone who hates durain being forced to eat one

but i will carry on this education
for this is the reason why i am in singapore
no matter the end result,
i will get my certificate
but i'm definately going to be a successful biz owner before i get my cert
before i graduate, i would alr be earning money

now do you see the reason why many successful biz in the worlds are started by dropouts?
becoz they understand this
it will be much harder to earn a million if one follows the school educational system
for it is designed to produce good workers, not big bosses

Disclaimer,
The above statements are all made by the writers own thinkings and reasonings. As it was typed in a train of thought, please do not believe whatever thats writen. It is for the sole pleasure for the writer to type the above. Thank you.

2009-10-31T23:26:00.004+08:00

thy blog is still alive...
im surprised...
after all these years
excellent...

systems are what control us
systems are what made us, us
systems are what that safeguard us from harm
systems are what that allows us to live in today's world
systems are what that made today's world

and these very system, are what irk me since i was born
now that i can see, pass the world, pass what they called reality
and i see myself standing infront of this huge system
the system that's so man-made that no one else seems to notice it
is it a fool to challenge e system?
is it even possible to challenge it in e first place?
i know i hate this system
but yet im powerless to do anything
but to follow the system...

or is it?

i can feel e air of ord coming...
after nxt duty... no more shit Proficiency Test!
no more... NO MORE!!!
just hand over properly everything i know
gotta chill and relax...
32 duties left... WOOT! (havnt minus my leaves)

2009-10-20T21:21:00.003+08:00

took me 3 tries b4 i was able to log into my blogger
HAHA! tts e price i gotta pay since i nv update it for so loong

lets just say i'm happy
for how things have turned out

i was so worried that my decision was wrong
that my actions have caused saddness and nothing else
at least i know that things have gotten better
perhaps, things would have gotten better with or without my decision
maybe...
in anycase... i'm happy =D

met up with ah ma ytd for a short 3hrs chit chat
somehow... she always make me feel stupid... :(
haha! but it was gd as it allowed me to see better
perhaps i am kinda laid-back down here
not yet down to earth and be who i am
i have to grow up...
stop talking abt responsibility instead taking them up
i have to really look at my life and see what i really want
who i was matters not but what i will be does

what should a person life be filled with?
what should a person life be like?
maybe coz everyone's life different thats why we have disagreements
but we all have e same end, death
and even e same aim, peace within ourselves
happiness...
has life being complicated due to our complex world?
or is 'survival of e fittest' e reason?
tho 'fittest may have other names

searching for my own reason...........

Cheers =D

2009-10-05T14:56:00.002+08:00

Gotta start thinking of ways to get my new blogskin
probably can get more motivation to start blogging HAHA!!

there are a couple more things that i have in my wishlist.. =D

1) New Specs
2) Custom made coporate set
3) Iphone 3GS
4) More fashion statements
5) Year end major project
6) Achievements
7) Old folks/Children homes?

i feel that i've begining to understand things that i never did
events happen for a reason, things go wrong for a purpose
these reasons, these purposes, are more often or not 'good'

okies enough of these grand theories... (ok maybe not grand)
i've new goals in mind! Things that i wanna to achieve
that wld probably help my mind to really start working instead of being idle

alright gotta go
commanders parade...
Zzz

2009-09-28T23:44:00.002+08:00

it has been such a long time since u've last posted...
blogging seems like something in e past
but im determined not to stop!
so here i am back again...
(not that any1 still comes here anymore)

how's life?

things been a roller coaster ride
(seems like e case all e time)
ups and downs are part of life
[Life, is 10% what the world throws at us, and 90% how we react to it]
i cant say tt im reacting well but im tryin to look at it positively

had a great rant by e Merlion bay with Daryl e other day
been keeping too much inside of me
its a gd thing to get it out of e system
remove e toxin from within
lol!

been trying hard to catch up with some old pals
still trying... haha!

all's well, in short
stressed, yes i am
tired, yes i am
worth it, to some extend and hopefully

past few months have been life changing
next few months may be changing life

do you see what i see?

change is the only constant!

2009-06-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

miracle do happen
while having lunch today with yh
he said, if we can have 10 ppl it'll be a miracle today
and e total ppl we had, was 20+

totally amazing
some ppl who said they werent coming came in e end
while some who said will come didnt come
HAHA! wad an irony

let recap this
me and yh was sitting down there looking at these human beings happily enjoying the bbq
and we both let a sigh of happiness and touched-ness
congratz to both of us

for e record
i opened up a cork in e bottle of wine using 2 satay sticks
no, i didnt thought of vectors of force
i just thought tt i can do it, and i did =D

i dun see myself gg to plan any of such outings again in e near future
i dun see myself in e big picture
mayb just small outings
like grps of 5-7 instead

gg home alone was time well spent
i got time to recall my feelings
to understand and find e meaning of them
paving e path i have chose since my decision was made

[man cant help others if he himself is not satisfied with his own life]

our perception of things greatly changes our feelings
and this perception can be altered by our surroundings, or by ourself

i had a fren who told me tt my emo post has been decreasing
e reason i find was becoz i've become just too lazy to type such posts out

[if you wanna the world a better place, you better look around yourself and make a change]

some of e closest friends i ever had
have become just so stranger
that i cant fathom what they are thinking
well that's probably coz we havnt been communicating

well with all due respect
even tho i believe i have a high level of tolerance
that doesnt mean i do not feel hurt-ed
and yea... i dids

when our eyes met
its like time fast forwarded as they 'jumped' away
its kinda convienent yet saddening
but im sure if e 'jump' dun occur, e lvl of saddness may just multiplied

for e rest of e stuffs i wanna to say
thou shant

take care and goodbye everyone =D

2009-06-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

hasn't it been a while?
im so caught up with reading the comic 'One Piece'
haha! i nv tot tt RUBBER can become so interesting...
oh well~

been hanging out e last few days
gg ard like Singapore Discovery Centre, Hortpark, amk (as usual), pool, heading out to chill, coffeebeansssss, movies, pc show YEAH!!!
but tt oso mean tt e financial side has become a huge burden as well
HAHHAAHA!!!
damnit... gotta earn more money!!!
money makes e world go round,
and it definately makes ME smile! =D =D =D

more outings coming up
yea yea yea~

2009-06-03T12:20:00.003+08:00

it has been long since i've last updated~
my first and LAST station is audit is just over
i wonder how much marks wld i get?
currently i'm incharge of building and maintenance in station
somehow this makes me kinda interested in buildings

e other day in causeway pt, i finally know where the FCC (Fire Command Centre) is
like wth man... after yrs in woodlands LOL!
and i saw the AHU room n i was like... yea... i know what's inside!
(of coz i didnt go in luh)
quite wth...

i was freaking talking to e security guard uncle at AJ e other day...
talked for like 30+ mins? with him telling me his problems with his kids
LOL! n we even took e train tgt to go home...
wow la~ excellent

went over to Johor ytd again
with pang hud david n rama
we WALKED to JB from the SG custom
wow~ not tt i wanna do it again, but i dare say
its definately FASTER than car/bus
except e motorcycles of coz...

short notes of what i've been up to e last few days
who says this blog is for you?
its for my future refences of how i was
heh =D

[SUCCESS is not HAPPINESS - HAPPINESS is SUCCESS!]
[What do we do between the time we're born till the time we're gone?]

2009-05-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

honesty
i've always proclaim myself that i DO NOT LIE!
the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth
which one is it?

about myself, i will not lie
but for others, for their sake, i may

this is a good thing
or is it?

things left unsaid
and things that have been said
how far do they reflect on things done?

no.
i'm not feeling emo or what
(not that i think that it's a BAD thing or a loser thing)
i'm just having doubts

have been dreaming about station life
and i wonder why
it is now such a much better place than it was in the begining

i asked myself if i've changed?
for the better or for the worse whilist during my NS
during my times in my course
during the times in bishan station

lets just say,
somethings change
while somethings never change

for a big part, i'm still who i am
i am still able to clique with anybody from anywhere
my proud-est character
have been meeting new friends
and losing some along the way

personally
i'm probably just tired...

NIGHTS!!!

2009-05-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

from ji mi's book (translated)

“What is love?”
“I don’t know. Maybe it’s the feelings that you have.”
“But what does that mean?”
“I can’t explain. Maybe it’s a kind of happiness.”
“But what is happiness?”
“I’m not sure, maybe is getting surrounded by love?”
“So what is love?”

as lives goes on, there's more and more abt responsibility
good guys never win
good deeds hurts others
right things are wrong

i'm tired.
i dont see myself in e future
i had my own codes and conducts
and they seems to be failing, falling one by one
"there's no 'restart' button n life" my senior once told me
bitting my lips and carrying on

i tried being a good guy
u know those who help people whenever they are in need?
those in the shows whereby they aint anybody
just some fellow who's dumb enough to be used by people
that kind of nice guys who never says no as long as u 'pls' them
(as in saying the word 'please')
u need money u come to me
u need some1 to listen come to me
u need some human being's attention, im there

and perhaps... just perhaps...
i've finally understood why good guys never win
because people just appreciate it, says thanks, and leave, or nothing at all
in today's world of demand and supply
company maximise profits
what you give does not always equals to what you get back
at most it is of e equal value
or so they thinks

lets see how long i'll last again in this seclusion
i'm determined of my own resolution
at least for this month

has love been materalised in e air?
has love been 'valued'? over and under valued at wrong times?

is good a good thing?
'he is a good person'
so he is good to you but what about himself
so is he feeling good then?
this brings back e fact tt humans are selfish being
how often do we think
"so he is good to him, to me, to them
is he feeling good?"
im starting to doubt if good is good anymore

a random post.
dont dwell too much into it...

2009-05-02T13:10:00.005+08:00

3rd decade of my life
the BIG TWO!
no longer a teen
a substantial number of years have passed
twenty!

Thanks to everyone who wished me Happy Bday
early, on time or late
appreciated =D

Bday to me is the time i give thanks
to everyone ard me, who have, had and will be helping me one way or another
Tho i dunno who wld come to this blog anymore but i wanna to express my thanks anw~

My Parents
do i even need to say more? i am who i am thanks to both of your. your love, patience, scolding, hitting, words have groomed me to who i am today. thanks to your, i've came to singapore, having education here and growing here, meeting who i'll thanks later below. for me, your left your country, your hometown, your family and came to a stranger land. all e more i will put in effort in my studies, so as to reply a tiny winy bit of your kindness.

My Bro
you remind me of myself when im young. and i see my flaws in u. all i hope is tt u see it soon too and mature as time goes by. i have loads of things tt i wanna to talk to you, tt i wanna to teach you but tt has to wait till e time is ripe. take care and study hard for your exams.

In no particular order

Huazhi, Kes, YiHeng
one of the best gifts in live are friends that just by meeting can put a smile on your face. coming end of this yr, i wld have known hz for 10yrs. 8yrs for kes n yh. well for a 20yrs old guy like me, tts like knowing your half of my life! for all e jokes, craps, heartfelt talks, senseless wacking, hanging out and hanging in, Thank your so much for pei-ing me in my journey of life in search of my self and my friends' self.

Mark, Victor, YongWen, Bryan
friends that no longer really communicate. best of pals in my different times of life. Thanks to Mark, who was like my first fren in pri 1, who taught me who to be who we are. Thanks to Victor, who is the first and last fren whom i've ever kicked in a real fight, but after tt we're frens again. it taught me what frens is all about. YongWen, who has to be one of the naughtiest and bad best fren i had from pri to sec sch. who brought me into band and tgt in the trumpet section clinched our gold with honours in sec4. bryan who was e first whom i 'act gay' with. all e late night calls and talks helped me to drive me out of my depression during those times of loneliness. Thank your so much.

PeeSheng
my gg home buddy in sec3 and 4. my same bday fren. my first malaysian fren. all e stupid acts, stupid talks, 'intelligent' talks, and questioning... HAHA! more often that not, you're the one giving in to me, helping me thru your own unique ways. tho we nv say it outloud but i really appreciated and thankful for your presence.

Feiyang
my gg home buddy after band prac. the one who first talked to me regarding ****. always so inspiring in his music. thanks for telling and showing me your side of the coin. always asking weird questions about life and some others. wonderful debates on how we see things differently. but perhaps its thanks to this that we've become frens.

KengWee
my first close senior. all the heartfelt talks. the one who showed me that i'm a gd sorrow bucket and it was assuring to know tt i hav a fren i you.

Daryl, Patrick
my man! or men! best pals in jc. with different characters and distinct personalities, we came tgt and nv left since. if on e first day of sch, we didnt sit tgt in e same table, i doubt we'll be who we are tgt. the ones who have been pulling me thru my jc life, bringing me back on track, all e guys talk, studying, staying over here and there. dudes... my jc life will be incomplete without your!

Peijin, Jullianah, Izhar
the first few non-chs close frens from aj. all e suanning of each other, craps, idiotic actions. jules, zhar while things seem awkward b/w us now , i'll nv forget e times we had tgt with us smiling n laughing hysterically. i hope tt as your carry on in your journey, perhaps nt just a memory, but a reminder. pj, no you're nt e fren whom i'll only ask out when i've no1 else to. anw thks for always giving me encouragement to carry on in life, building me up again from my broken soul.

FangQing, Huimin (dumbdumb and dumbin)
acquintanctes to friends to close friends. they have always been my friend's friend. even tho huimin was also in band but i nv talk to her much. but as times goes by, after we gotta know each other better, all e studying in school, lib, mos burger, brought us closer. we hang out more often after As than before. allowed me to get thru my mugging period, and awaiting for enlistement time fast.

Sidney, KeJun
three hearts. i think we can drop e idea of our queen bah~ wld be qte messy if there's ever one. frens whom i got only close to after As. realised that i've nv actually really studied with your b4 nor really helped each other in academics. but its pure joy fun and laughter, and also e emo sharing times, tt bonded us. stupid piaks piaks and staying over were just great to relieve myself from reality. even for a short period of time.

Denise, Edmund, Yueqi
my first 3 close fren who isnt from chs. meeting them has becoming more and more difficult as time past. tho we live pretty close to each other. my tuition mates in sec 4 and periodic then bball n now mahjiong mates. well started off as a +1 in their grp, i became closer to them than i've ever imagined. jus wanna to thank your for all e happy times we had tgt. a special grp of frens whom i will rmb forever.

Jesmine
closest senior from ajcsb. within a few months, we were alr gossiping like no1's business, sharing our secrets and others' (which was largely part of e fun). unbeliveable times spent. being each others' sorrow bucket really helped as we often encourage each other, helping whoever is in need. never fail to put a smile on my face whenever we talk. just like magic.

Suh Tyng
still rmb-ed e first time i met u when u told me your name is 'shooting'. well it did its job by allowing me to rmb ur name. i still prefer this name to 'suting'. e 'uh' n e 'y' makes it unique i guess. thank you for your small gestures, which more often than not tells me n kept me motivated in my journey in jc and after.

Rama, Huddy, David, Sun
what would ERSC be like without your? meaningless laughing and suaning and all e cocky-ness. thanks for walking with me down this road and eventually becoming best of frens in a short span of few months, till e end of my road. awaiting my nxt JB outing with ur and experience another thrill-filled outing at places i've nv been before again! (lets try n ask sun along this time round)

and to the rest who have one way or another made me who i am today, i thank you again.
kengseng, gerald tan, joseph, hengry, yonghua (pri), yizha, oliver, wang jiunn (sec), CHSSB, carmelita, gerald, angie, brenda, shaun, joshua, claire, amanda (church), jocelyn, yuanwen, yvonne, dania (0606 pae), AJSCB, xianhui, liyi, dean, marlene, siangning, genim, languan, weiken, shalini, yeeyan, gary, so so many more.

2009-04-26T15:16:00.002+08:00

those were qte a great off duties these days...

20th
met up with ah ma aka pj
headed to look for shoes - loafers to be exact
didnt find one that's within my price range and my taste
had a great catch up session with her. lol~
actually wanted to fix my bicycle but e stupid shop dont open on mon
wasted my time... Zzz

21st - work

22nd
finally fixed my bicycle
YEAH! =D
headed home to wait for parents
back from hk!
bought me a new Seiki Watch
SWEET! =D

23rd
met up with st @ town
went to far east to look at shoes AGAIN
cant find one tt catch my attention...
Zzz
altho she studies in town but she sure dont know town well
bleahx

24th - on duty

25th
@ JB with kwok, hud and rama
1st time gg there via bus
1st time gg there with friends
qte shiok
bought new shorts, polo shirt and shoes!
YEAH SHOES!!! finally
but it aint a loafer HAHA!
totally enjoyed it

nxt time can go johor and chill, relax for a day OR TWO =D

26th
meeting miss wanli later
catchin movie 17 again...

simple short and sweet update =D

2009-04-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

home alone
-yet again-
boring till e max
facing the com
buay tahan went to slp
nobody to hav breakfast, lunch nor dinner
holy shit~

parents are back in hk
for few days due to unfortunate events
oh well...
perhaps i shld head out

Zzzt

goals
been losing sight of them
no... i've left them behind
gotta get them back
otherwise this yr wld be so meaningless

i'm feeling so fatigue, exhausted, breathless
looking for ways to perk me up
trying to feel for something that i cant
(tt sounded so familiar)

been thinking alot
alot is an understatement
what if and what ifs
maybe and perhaps

but...

haiz...

gdnite~

2009-04-11T22:26:00.002+08:00

last duty
i fought my first fire that i have to wear my Breathing Apparatus (BA)
aka tts e thingy tt we wear a cylinder behind our back with our face mask on which supplies air into our lungs when e situation warrants it
alrighty basically something we use when we're in a un-breathable area
>.<

so yea... it was this Centralised Rubbish Chute (a really big one) that caught fire and the whole chute was filled with THICK BLACK SMOKE
alrighty i was taught tt u wldnt be able to see in an enclosed area
well... lets jus say tt i've finally experienced and understand wad tt meant!
lol~

it was kinda cool luh~
best thing, i didnt hav to do e fire report
altho we were e first arriving crew
HEH! coz i was in e red rhino and e D.O. came
lalala~

so on gd fri...
i headed over to sengkang meeting some gd old frens for a game of bball
after which was my man patrick n earnest at novena sq to tok abt pat's bday party
finally home sweet home for dinner
finally finally went over to kj's hse for stayover with xu,kj n sid

so far so gd luh~

april been gd so far
my juniors SHLD b coming in after tomorrow's duty
so by my nxt duty, i wld hav NEW and my FIRST juniors SC!
like FINALLY AFTER 6 FREAKING months!
ahahhaa...
yea ur probably wldnt understand this paragraph
own reference only~
bleahx!

and faizal called today (coz he was bored n streesed)
toked abt this n tt...
guys tok...
started me thinking
ho-hum~

yes-no?
human lives their life via trial-and-error
i shld start living an interesting advanturous life

HIAK HIAK!!!

2009-04-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

"Bring It All Back"

Bring it all back now

Don't stop, never give up
Hold your head high and reach the top
Let the world see what you have got
Bring it all back to you

Hold on to what you try to be
Your individuality
When the world is on your shoulders
Just smile and let it go
If people try to put you down
Just walk on by don't turn around
You only have to answer to yourself

Don't you know it's true what they say
That life, it ain't easy
But your time's coming around
So don't you stop tryin'

Don't stop, never give up
Hold your head high and reach the top
Let the world see what you have got
Bring it all back to you
Dream of falling in love
Anything you've been thinking of
When the world seems to get too tough
Bring it all back to you

Na na na na..

Try not to worry 'bout a thing
Enjoy the good times life can bring
Keep it all inside you
Gotta let the feeling show
Imagination is the key
'Cos you are you're own destiny
You never should be lonely
When time is on your side

Don't you know it's true what they say
Things are sent to try you
But your time's coming around
So don't you stop tryin'

Don't stop, never give up
Hold your head high and reach the top
Let the world see what you have got
Bring it all back to you
Dream of falling in love
Anything you've been thinking of
When the world seems to get too tough
Bring it all back to you

Na na na na..

Don't you know it's true what they say
Things happen for a reason
But your time's coming around
So don't you stop tryin'

Don't stop, never give up
Hold your head high and reach the top
Let the world see what you have got
Bring it all back to you
Dream of falling in love
Anything you've been thinking of
When the world seems to get too tough
Bring it all back to you
[Repeat to fade]

2009-04-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

finally headed out with my bros and other 2 hearts (for a while)

met daryl at dhoby to pool at monstercue b4 meetin pat, sid n kj @ cine
sid n kj watched movie while we carried on to
wheellock coz daryl wans to service his phone
followed by opposite funan where i got my new headphones with jerold working there
finally funan where pat got his stuffz
by then i headed back for mass and home sweet home

randomly met some ppl out there
alvin + 1 chs as i came out of mrt at dhobby
weng yi @ cine
howard @ cine
jonathan while going home in mrt

pat and daryl had their fair shares of random frens on e street

been long since i walked down orchard. from dhoby to wheelock
realised ive been coming up with some random statements which seems qte nice to share

[as cold as fire]
[there's a difference between "the truth", "the whole turth" and "nothing but the truth"]

BTW
CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL SYMPHONY BAND
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!
once again

e moment i received e sms i literally raised my hands into e air!
lol it was retarded... but i cant stop my emotions from showing
HAHA!!!

GONG JIAO!!!

2009-04-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

i ALMOST FREAKING got charged today...
got lorry indented for us to send us to division HQ to get charged
woahhh...

April Fool joke? probably not...
but i would LOVE for it to be
so yea... anw i got off safely
PHEW~

for the past whole month of March
every duty sucked
either this not working, got caught by OC or Dy
kenna fire report or have to do routine, statement
even 'nominated' for change of command parade
or ALMOST KENNA CHARGED...
it was just so so soooooo stressful
eventful would be more optimistic way of viewing it
LOL!

and i thought
1st April will be the start of my change of bad luck to gd luck
i had the taste of joy today when i was told i aint getting charged
TOTALLY HAP HAP HAPPY!!!
after a tiring rehearsal, which effectively lessen my lifespan of my wrist
hanging out with huddy with rama pangseh-ing (which he will deny since it was never cfm-ed, so he says)
heading home heard abt the GD NEWS of CHSSB awarded GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!
(yea man! proud of your! GONG JIAO!!!!!!!)
finally infront of my laptop
chatting and surfing...

WOOT!!! that familiar emotion creeped in again...

how will i fare in april? >.<

2009-03-29T21:55:00.002+08:00

im now feeling like a active volcano
erupting anytime soon
even if it does erupt
perhaps only dust and ash will be shot out

JINX-ED!!!
tts wad i'm called
what other people can do, i cannot
because they'll get away with it while i won't

PERFECT!

come on come on...
i need some change of luck

who shall my lady luck be???
>.<

2009-03-15T13:21:00.001+08:00

Please
Thank You
I'm Sorry

how often have we used these phrases?
how often do we now actually mean it?
are we so used to saying theses 3 phrases that they have lost their meanings?

please... say it when you really mean it....
im sick and tired of ppl saying "pls pls pls pls pls" when they just want your help and after that, forget everything that you've done for them
thinking that 'i've said please. so its only right for them to help me'
or 'i've said thank you, FULLSTOP'
or 'i've said sorry, wad more do u wan? i expect u to forgive me'

alright maybe that's nt always e case
but it is happening more and more frequently

we've been taught to say those 3 sentences whenever we shld
as it protray manners and gd character
but it seems that we've been so hyponotised into it that we say it without our heart in it
i'm one of such person some times

and im sure at points in our lives
we've become oblivious to these 3 sentences
either the sender or the receiver

let us say these when we really mean it
these 3 sentences r one of e most beautiful phrases
pls... dont tarnish them

Thank You!

2009-03-11T15:07:00.002+08:00

rainbow over e heartland of AMK, under the heavy dark clouds

just felt like uploading this picture which i took while on my way home
for my past week, i'm like e heartland while there's e heavy dark clouds but yet
i see no rainbow...
as a matter of fact, thy clouds r much much heavier AND darker
i'm looking for my rainbow
but tt can happen when there's light
its still pouring over here
but i suppose dark clouds will go away
n once again e sky will b clear, bright and sunny

i need something to lift me up
losing thy drive
this 'up' and 'down' is happening much too fast for me
never did i thought tt working will cause such stress
or is it coz of -other- things?
Zzzzz Zzzzz

my latest random post (see below) shows how wrongly wired i am
actually wanted to write abt something else den dunno y tt post came out
train of thoughts blocked by another train...
-faint-

2009-03-08T17:10:00.002+08:00

Human cannot live without the Earth
But the Earth can live without Humans

"OUR blue planet"
"OUR motherland"
how often have we seen these words but how many are taking ownership of this planet, third from the sun?
As our planet get devoured by us, human, how strong is the world's voice able to reach out to save her?
isn't it innate to protect what's most precious to oneself?
its not like we're offering this vast piece of rock to some higher beings so as for us to be rewarded of who knows what.
So why do we require reminders of how bad we're treating to her?
aren't we, in a way unfilial?
lets not talk about we been born from the soil of the Earth
after all that's been given to us FOC by the earth namely, food, raw materials, water, oxygen, LIFE! it isnt THAT MUCH to ask of from us to just take a little gd care of her.
i think that she has been patient to us as much as she can
and recently, she has started throwing tantrum
and EVEN if you don't watch the news or hearsay of such incidents
EVERYONE should on Earth shld have started FEELING e effects
IF we dont do something soon, it'll become WWIII
just that it may not be human VS human
but human VS earth
and im pretty sure, we dont want either party to lose
because...

Human cannot live without the Earth
But the Earth can live without Humans

2009-02-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

i love this book out totally!!!

right after i went home, had lunch with dad n head out to meet david kwok @ admiralty mrt
away we go to dhobby to find huddy with pang joining us soon later
after lunch we head over to pool at parklane and rama joined us there
finally we got to play L4D after waiting for freaking long
haha! well it aint't as WOW for me tho...
got headache while playing tt Zzz

left my mates to find e other 2 hearts...
sid n kj (tgt we 3 hearts LOL!)
ate at subway @ amkhub (yes amk hub AGAIN Zzz)
walk walk walk b4 we went kj's hse stay over
tok tok tok... wack wack wack...
hahaha 3 losers... >.<

morning after breakfast with them i headed over to novena stn
makan at fish n co. with
ms zhu, ms tan, yiheng, yeeyan, gary, kenneth, nic, jeanice, shalini and sunguan
too bad for those who didnt head out with us! haha
'09 chalet adhoc will currently be me, yh, yy n sunguan
hopefully things will b better than last yr... bleahx!

as we were heading back to e stn
i met mrs woon AKA ms khoo
who was my pri5 form teacher
who FREAKING RMB-ED ME! LOL!
wow luh... even some JC teachers dun rmb me after jus few months
so touched...haha
so gonna to catch up with her
hahaha! >.<

n yea... i headed all e way to enous to hav my first driving lesson
WOOT! my instructor says im a quick learner
haha yay! hope things will b great! lol

finally went back to hav dinner with family =D

HOME SWEET HOME!!!

wad a hell of a two days LOL!
gotta stop spending...
msut save le... must work le...
any1 knows of anywhere nice to work with gd $$$
got lobang MUST JIO OK!!! =D

for my plans in e future
i gotta work double hard!!!

First Step
my plans r set
but e path aint smooth
taking a deep breath
i made my first move

2009-02-25T21:37:00.002+08:00

things are finally ongoing...
damn much more $$$ is gg to be spent

- driving practice ($36/lesson)
- hosting plan ($3.50/month)
- protein powder (~$100+)

e last one still lookin at it
yea i finally got my own domain and host
paid of coz... cant stand those free hosting
downtime is real bad and slow
well post my domain up once the site is up and running
probably by next week if things go well

HOPEFULLY!!!
driving lessons starting this saturday...
oh man... exciting...

today went out with miss wanli
tho i was late but when i reached there she was STILL doing her work
oh well... headed over to marina sq den back to amk hub
yea amk hub... boooo
and played pool...
gosh she n her sister has some freaking tyco-ness in them
-faint-
listening to her tok seemed like a breath of fresh air
".... you're an anomaly"
alright its not tt i dun understand but it has been a loong time since i heard such "scientific" phrases >.<

YTD!!! after reaching home from work
bath and relax-ing at home
suddenly got a call saying that we got recalled back
woah i shock sia first time...
there's only 2 reason they recall (or so i tot)
1) a surprise audit (to test our recall timing)
2) a national disaster
alright i was hoping to was e former of coz
for us, our recall timing gotta be within 30mins
and since my uniform are all in station, i had to head over there first
so i took a cab
HALFWAY THERE i realised there's actually a THIRD reason...

FALSE ALARM!!!!

conclusion: F-ED UP!

enuff said...

damnit.. tmr i'm doing watchroom operator again
BORING!!!
2 duties ago i jus did jus tt... Zzz

chaoz~

2009-02-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

mambo-ed ytd with taa,shuk,sianghoon,barron,claire and daryl!
its my first time gg clubbing with daryl, my bro!
lol! like finally... past few plans were hipcups...

shuk got me a drink called 'hot n sticky'
while its suggestive... its real strong
one is enuff to get me high...
tho it didnt last long >.<

no pictures coz nobody brought camera... Arghzz

guess who i saw there...
24th SC!!!
ok nt all luh but some of them...
was qte shock sia...
i cant imagine 23rd SC gg there as an outing tho LOL!!!
but it wld probably b qte a scene to rmb HAHA!

been some time since i last updated...
i know there're things to update but i guess its alright not to bah
since im kinda lazy as well... >.<

got qte somethings sorted out ytd... happy abt tt...
yay =D

2009-02-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

The last two posts coz i qte boliao so added them
haha!

went to ssg gary's house to bai nian
only me n alex on time
well he's on time coz he met me first LOL!
e rest... lets say its norm to be late for 2hrs bah~

played mahjiong.
kns!
lost near $100
gary took almost $70 from me alone
but he only took like $30+ in e end from me
THKS!!! >.<

ytd went back to aj to see e dance
borriquito
i feel tt our batch shld really teach e nxt batch how to dance PROPERLY
to e councillors i mean... so tt they can impart e RIGHT techniques down too...

after which went swimming with kj
zzz FREAKING COLD!!!

now after our duty (station)
we gotta run! zzz
first was 4km plus... last one was 6.5km
ZZZzzz TIRING SIA!!!
arghh...
but its all gd i suppose haha =D

tmr duty.
chinese having steamboat in station
WOOT! =D

jus looked thru my previous postsssss
load of them on council
load of them abt HMWK
LOAD of them freaking emo and stressed!
hahha!

jialat jialat
how diff m i now den before?
i wonder i wonder...

2009-02-07T21:46:00.001+08:00

COLOURGENICS

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

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2009-02-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

i suppose i'm kinda bored at e moment so HECK MY "status" words... xP

1) i'm born in HONGKONG but i have as much IDEA abt hk as any1 of your (beside those who lived/lives in hk) coz i was brought over to singapore when i was less than TWO years old...

2) i rmb (dun ask me how) tt my uncle made me smoke b4 when i was still a young KID. probably ard e age of THREE? so TECHINCALLY i SMOKED before...

3) my cantonese sounds like mainland china. ie not piao zhun hk accent >.<

4) i often think that its because of my birth place that i'm enlisted to SCDF.

5) i took PSLE without knowing WTH was PSLE until e day i got my result =X

6) i was in chess club in pri sch BECAUSE my mother don't want me to join BBALL BECAUSE she don't want me to be UNDER E SUN!!! Zzz... (Chess club air-con ma)

7) i joined band in secondary school because it has air-con. NOT! well its more like my best friend joined hence i followed. hehe...

7) i played the trumpet in CHSSB and was the Recruiting Officer cum Drilling Instructor.

9) we obtained GOLD and GOLD WITH HONOURS @ sec2 and sec4 in '03 and '05 SYF respectively "GONG JIAO!!! OI!!!"

10) i played bball EVERY MORNING in sec1/2 before assembly starts and some times during recess breaks too!

11) i was CHEATED into joining the Prefectorial Board because my friend said i was going for the COUNCIL interview in CHS. boooo...

12) i held the MOST AdHocs (if im not wrong) in 23rd SC - AJC namely
- Teachers' Day '06 (I/C)
- Open House '06 (HR comm)
- Orientation 1 '07 (Assistant I/C)
- CCA Carnival 1 '07 (Log I/C)
- CCA Carnival 2 '07 (Publicity I/C)
- Movie Fest 2 '07 (Overall I/C)
- ABCamp '07 (Welfare Head, EXCO) <-- not a COUNCIL event

13) i would often LIKE to think that 11) is e reason for joining council in AJC and 12) is e reason y i got lousy grades for 'A's hence... my friend who CHEATED me is e reason i got lousy grades for 'A's =X

14) tho i would be cheating myself if i say so in 13), BUT it did affect one way or another. 12) not my friend. :)

15) THANKS to 12) i got my Distinguished Service Award!! WOOT!!!

16) i feel that living a life with no regrets is living a life INDEED! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST at every moment!!!

17) i've clocked OVER 300+++ HOURS of CIP in 2yrs in AJC!

18) i'm freaking scared of HORROR movies... because... beacuse... of T-REX in jurassic park >.< (will not entertain any comments in this)

19) thing is... i'm TOTALLY COOL with jurassic park now but im still scared of horror movies.

20) i'm quite a picky buyer. unless its something tts UNIQUE i wouldnt really fancy. UNLESS i NEED to buy it

21) i think guys who help girls carry their handbags are FREAKING UNCOOL!!! girls should carry a handbag of a weight that they find comfortable with.

22) i would like to pick up dancing, cooking, foreign lang, ~~girls~~ DRIVING

23) i'm TRYING to set up an online shop but i keep hitting roadblocks ARRGHHH

24) i want to earn a MILLION DOLLAR$$$

25) i'm ACTUALLY SHY!!!

somehow managed to squeeze qte some parts of me into this 25 points.
i'll ADHERE to the rule and NOT exceed 25 points.
hope u enjoyed it. lol!

~ DrOfLa
Cheers =D

2009-01-31T21:07:00.003+08:00

掙扎
作詞：張棟樑　作曲：宇恆　編曲：Terence Teo

還記得妳說過　我們回不去了
也知道過去的守候　挽不回什麼
我看到結束的時候　妳眼角不捨的淚
彷彿在告訴我　有一天愛會回來

＃這是你要的嗎　妳能不能回答　為何妳眼中還有掙扎
　是不是在想他　他比我更好嗎　寂寞的時候　會想我還是他
　不應該再等待　不要再受傷害　愛過以後　我卻只能說　終於明白
　可能有時候　愛總是不完美

還記得妳說過　我們回不去了
也知道過去的守候　挽不回什麼
我看到結束的時候　妳難以抉擇的淚
彷彿在告訴我　有一天愛會回來

Repeat ＃

這是你要的嗎　妳能不能回答　為何妳眼中還有掙扎
是不是在想他　他比我更好嗎　寂寞的時候　是愛我　是愛他

這是你要的嗎　妳怎麼不回答　為何妳眼中還有掙扎
是不是在想他　他比我更好嗎　寂寞的時候　會想我還是他
不應該再等待　不要再受傷害　愛過以後　我卻只能說　終於明白
可能有時候　愛總是不完美

i realised something...
everytime when i talk abt seemingly big things...
like topics on LIFE, Gd vs Bad, What we should and what we shouldnt
more often than not...
im toking abt myself
but i put it in a way like it is how in general it should be
woo~~~

emo to me is a way of reflection
not e i wanna to die kinda emo
Cheers =D

PASSED FTT!!!
now looking for instructor...
hope to pass b4 my bday =D

i realised...
i shouldnt hav realised it...
Zzz...

thinking of things i shouldnt
dreaming of wonderments i cant
WOOT!!!
aint life great? HAHAHA!

2009-01-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

being over a week since i last blogged
lazy bum... haha
anw b4 i go further

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
HAPPY NIU YEAR!!!

well it has been... e "same" cny this yr
gg ard meeting e same few families n friends
well i do meet them only once a yr
unless tyco see them on e street
(which somehow happens qte often lol)

having a break today from work
paid $100 to cover
coz cannot take leave le...
no more free spots.. ZzzZzz..

most of my weekdays had been kinda boring
back to e same problem
gals work guys ns
HAHA!
well mayb like this i wld hav more time for myself for other things =D

nothing much to update
watching Prince of Tennis!
well its qte a nice anime
due to influence by some1...
i actually went to check out this anime
well nt regreting
at least can waste my time LOL!!!

btw me n yh will b heading back to aj in e 2nd week of feb
orientation week
will b helping out in dances n cip
lol yea two guys who r too free!
HAHA~

join us if ya free!

Cheers =D

2009-01-18T13:08:00.003+08:00

having a 4/5 days off
oh well...
time to update me blog...

13/1
went out with edmund koh
he said he wanted to buy cny clothes
in e end bought a tshirt (nt for cny) n berms
lousy shit... while i got myself a bright red horizontal strip polo
haha =D wanted to get a red for qte long le...
finally got excuse HAHA! >.<

14/1
vivo-ed with yueqi
didnt expect to go so far at first.. haha
she wanted to buy present for her fren
so vivo we went n almost ALL apparal shops we went in
-faint-
n oh theres this cool national geo shop
oh man... nv see b4... qte nice...
inside got this "heat loss" machine using infra-red i suppose
can detect how much heat loss...
well e monitor showing e heat loss in infra-red vision turns out to be kinda creepy with respect to yq. LOL!
walk until my legs gone case.. >.<

15/1 - on duty
durin night lecture, ms zhu suddenly contacted me n yh
asking us to head back to help out during orientation for e dances
woot!

16/1
went back to aj to tok to ms zhu
in e end me n yh toked to e aunties longer than ms zhu, i mean corrine... HAHA!
kk ms zhu... =D
she even asked us do free manual labour leh... tsk tsk
kies luh.. nvm...

after which went to meet huang fangqing...
had craving for prata den ate @ e Ah Mei dunno wad restraunt
oh lao.. ex ex
but their drinks not bad.. but still ex ex >.<
went to NTUC n walked for at least an hour i suppose...
hahha! somehow... ntuc can walk qte long one...
EVEN WHEN U HAV NOTHING TO BUY
LOL! BUT it was fun luh...
loitering... =D
saw elieen for a short short while b4 she headed for e gym

17/1
had a mini council outing @ jule's hse
spencer cooked some spagetti with tomato sauces while jule's mum did pizza for us
e pizza was nice... enough said =D

later ard 5 went to meet poh n neo for lee's chalet
(haha all surnames)
@ cosata sand pasir ris
woah long journey... to n fro
ZZzzz
yea qte a no. of station ppl went
congratz lee... become husband liaoz HAHA!
Cheers =D

one word
TIRED!!!

one more word
eventful =D

last word...
BLEAHX!

2009-01-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

my dad's 2nd bro came over to sg from hk with his wife
it has been over 20yrs since he step out of hk...

well it has been some years since any of my relatives came over

this time... i caught me thinking...

relatives... how diff wld it be if im in hk with my relatives
or if my relatives r here with me...
i often envy those who have cousins whom they r close to
sometimes they can help them with sch work, issues
or at times can hang out tgt n jus hav fun...
tho i do know there r some which aint all so beautifully painted

but if its my relatives n cousins tt i know
im pretty sure it'll be a very nice experience =D

hence e only ppl whom i can rely on and trust are my frens (besides my family luh~)

but somehow... hmm...

i hav still much to learn...
much to endure...

2009-01-08T01:25:00.005+08:00

brick walls are used separate those who really wants it to those who don't

have patience, and the good side of a person will eventually be shown to you

no man is all evil

experience is what you get, when you don't get what you want

to do great things, just make sure you do the small things right

it is not what we don't know that destroy us, but what we know for sure that just ain't so

sadness is just a process to be happy

love is to forgive, is to give, for these are the hardest things to do

complex simplicity

life like a stage

I am the Director of this show
Shooting my life the way I deem fit
Shouting "CUT" when things ain't right
Carefully piecing up each scene

I am the Camera man on the stage
Taking the angles that I want to show
Using my professional camera skills
Hiding all that I don't want you to know

I am the Backstage man behind the scene
Doing all that you do not know
Ensuring everything is in place
So that everyone else can do their roles

I am the Script writer of the play
The dreams and infinite possibilities that I can hold
Penning down the life I would desire
Decisions made when I hit the crossroad

I am the Actor in this theatre
The one whom you see
So full of emotions and actions
But yet may not be really me

I am the stage where my life is played

- original composition by ~DrOfLa

2009-01-05T18:37:00.002+08:00

went back to sch today with yiheng
was late (as usual...)
today there was ogl workshop
so we headed back to check out e dances
i suppose we hav too high an expectation eh?
>.<
but it was nice gg back sch
see some teachers...
tok abt e past n all

oh yar...
SAW YVONNE there...
so qiao
she jus finished squash n went aj to makan...
but too bad for her canteen wasnt open
no sch today.. sch starts nxt week for j2s
BUT gd for her coz she met me...
haha! coz got buffet n all for e teachers
(they had some workshop)
so LEFTOVERS!!!
=D
now TT really brings back memory... LOL

a yr n a month
13months left
still got 130+ duties left...
woot!!!
i can do it! hahaha

Cheers =D

2009-01-02T18:50:00.003+08:00

10 Reasons to date a firefighter

1. We like it hot

2. We find 'em hot, leave 'em wet.

3. We know how to hit all the hot spots

4. We have the longest hoses

5. We handle what no one else will

6. We know how to handle our hose

7. We walk where the devil dances

8. We fight what you fear

9. We are ready 24/7

10. We always wear protection

11. We have the biggest Heart

spent my new yr countdown over station
we didnt even countdown...
originally was allowed to go out but... nvm...
planned to meet PAE 0606 classmates @herren
planned to go zouk FOR FREE for count down with churchmates
but but but...

well met up with peesheng on 1/1/09 with joey
been a long time since i met him
was hoping i can celebrate our 21st bday with him
but he got finals HAIZ >.<

new year! must hav new yr resolution right?
HAHA!!! here goes nothing...
in no order of merit

1) learn how to cook
2) learn a new lang
3) business set up
4) widen my social circle
5) stay fit and healthy
6) study something...
7) gain more experience in station
8) hope that this year will be over soon
(not that i wldnt like but... closer to ORD!)
9) be a better brother, son and friend
10) understand something new! =D

2008-12-30T20:13:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
BJ! yea daryl lim

2. Your relationship with him/her?
watashi wa's bro =D

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
-smart!
-always seems emo-y (or mayb he is...)
-reliable bro
-believes in himself
-determined to succeed

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
helping me keep secrets =D

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
wa lao...

6. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
his down there... xD

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
kill him. kill myself.

8. What is it you want to tell him/her now?
move on!

9. Your overall impression of him/her is?
sometimes thinks he knows wad he's doing but doesnt
but most of e time he does...

10. How do you think people around you feel about you?
i wld love to know it tt too.

11. Which part of your character do you love about yourself?
putting others before self.

12. On the contrary, which part of your character do you hate about yourself?
i dont.

13. The most ideal person you want to be?
i am who i am.
ideal is something that i want.
and i want myself to be myself.
hence im e most ideal person i m.

14. For people who care for you and like you, say something to them.
happy new year!
dear frens, no matter e issue placed infront of us, lets pull it thru!

15. Pass on this quiz!
i dun do such things... =D

lame! stupid daryl...
bleahx!

alrighty... feel like writing e last post for 2008
recap recap time =D

how would i rate this year?
10/10!
it is not a score for good vs bad
but wad it means, is that it is filled with emotion
filled with laugh joy n laughter
filled with sorrow lonely and tears
filled with sweat fatigue and breathlessness
filled with outings parties and drinks
filled with varitey of experience

from e begining of e yr

job as promoter
job as factory worker
enlistement into scdf
brtc to cda
ERSC to POC
bintan trip
bishan fire station

all e new frens i've met
all e crazy training i've been thru
all e meeting up with friends hanging out and partying
everything everything

so much has happened this yr
so refreshing yet nonstalgic

recently some ppl which r related to my in tier3 passed away
tho i may not know them but my tier1 frens r pretty upset abt e news
-note they r not their frens either-
to those who has left, may ur soul finds eternal peace
to my frens, help those in need of ur comfort in this dire situation
they left very young... not even 21...
god bless...

2008-12-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

Merry Merry Christmas!!!
its e season of giving and sharing
and enjoying my Christmas =D

took leave for today's duty!
SHIOK! =D

23/12/08
went for lim (station personnel) bday chalet
qte a no. went over
first time i drink until so siaoz
there were 3 bottles
vodka, chivas n a 16 yrs old scotch whisky
omg! siaoz siaoz...
many of them puked here n there tho
HAHA!
stayed over n only reached home e nxt day

24/12/08
after e chalet, went out again in e afternoon
met up kj, howard, joey, kq, weilie
went to amk hub (again yes)
saw jy, wq n ys
after which played lan (dota, generals n cs)
den go home le HAHA
changed went for 9PM mass den went out with ta n gerald
met up with shuan, pei ling, angie n vic AND taa's frensss
in e whole table of ard 13ppl, only taa knows everyone
lol! wth...
after much discussion n walking, finally went over to this pub called yello jello
free entry (YAY!) but drinks were WHOO~
our bill was like $448 HOLY SHIT!
but we drank really qte alot
champagne, whisky, jugs of beers + others
everything started off qte dull but once e drinking started
woah high.. HAHA
went over to anthony's hse n cont. some more tequila
i slpt on his bed.. CMI...
HAHA >.<
morning went home by train

25/12/08
well slpt till ard 12pm, den woke up for lunch...
ard 4+ met up with sid n kj to go over to sq's house for bbq
woah... sq's relatives almost made me drink somemore hard liquor
HAHA! but i kindly rejected them
i still wan my liver sia... bleahx!
its nice to hang out with ppl u dunno once in a while
hav a fresh of new air
sq's best fren, constance has her OWN CAR!
omg... im like so jealous of her
haha! somemore she within 3 months got her liscence WLAO!!!
im gg to be like her CHIONGZZ!!!
haha =D
i hope i can do it too lol!

just some food for thoughts of being in scdf
well e TRUE station life is starting to daunt upon me
as a section commander, e responsibilities
well in a way, i do learn alot of practical stuffs
probably will help me when im working
but den again.. it gernerates stress coz there jus so much things to jagar
e station IS LIKE a working office
do stock taking, take care of this n that...
calling up agencies to liaise with them with regards to many things
well an unique experience i wld say
a gd one... perhaps i hope
1yr n a month more...

JIAYOU!

2008-12-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since i last updated...
well i was kinda too busy to update

12/12 (fri)
met up with ah ma aka pj like FINALLY
haha~
went ARD in suntec
keep pangseh-ing me for shopping... >.<
has really been a long long time since i went out with her
woah~
went over to kenny roger to makan
im not ever gg there again unless for e pot pie...
e quality there not say like WOAH for tt tag price
BLEAHX!

13/12 - on duty

14/12 - rested at home

15/12
BTT - passed! =D
met gary jule n yy for lunch
after which went over to sentosa to meet up with station ppl
was e only chi there but i still had fun
beaching... relaxing in e water...
but i suppose my skin is too sensitive bah~
itch itch itch... Zzz~

16/12 - on duty

17/12
kbox! with jesmine, jiejie, meimei and jason
all my seniors... HAHA
aj band seniors...
too bad was only there for 6months lol~
if i've stayed... perhaps things wld b different
talking abt band... makes me miss band... T.T

18/12
out with sid, kj, dx + gabby n jancy
we 4 one set... e 2 one set
LOL!
watched YES! Man
not a bad show... shld watch
"everytime you say no, you're rejecting an opportunity into your life"
but dun be siaoz siaoz say YES! for all things luh~
=D
basically...
Live your Life to the FULLEST!

19/12 - on duty

20/12
councillors outing...
well since i went there kinda late
didnt know how was it like
but when i reached... well it became kinda dead...
n divided
e middle grp was e cat high grp
with me yh n jy
front grp was e others
with nic, ken, jeanice, and (gary or yy)
e back was jule + (gary or yy)
HAHA!
left for marina sq for dinner ard 5+
more ppl came!
tiff, mar, dean, spencer, jion chun, sze huan
after dinner at carl's jnr (my 2nd time)
went over to esplanade far corner n got ourself comfortable on e floor
had some gossip session n was jus talking n talking
reminiscing abt e old cat high days... jc days...
NS n uni were brought up once in a while...
e night was great~

21/12
dad drove us to jurong pt for dinner
omg! e new extension is HUGE!!!
like more than DOUBLE e size of e original one
damn~ first northpt now jurongpt
when will it be causewaypt's turn!
i cant wait... hahhaha~

22/12 - on duty

23/12 - 27/12 - OFF DUTY!!!
took leave on christmas =D
christmas... hmmm... wad shld i do... >.<
*hint hint*

2008-12-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

humans... curious creatures...
is it becoz of this curiousness that have lead us to become e most intelligent animal on this planet
with it, we advanced and make full use of our discovery thanks to our curiousity
from the early age such how to a starting a fire
using a wooden stick n some dried leaves
to e modern age like how our body works, how did e universe begin
thanks to this curious part of us, we now are able to enjoy e benefits such as electricity, aircon, medicine, etc etc

we wanna to know more, we need to know more
with e explosion of information via the internet, people are able to access to materials that we could nv ever had in e past
from simple things like, how to fold a paper airplane to how to build ur own computer
if u're gd enough, u can even obtain vital informations from competitors and beat them of their products (sometimes oso known as hacking)
ytd i read e newspaper, GPS is now used to track e movements of ur beloved ones
from a perspective, it can be seen as a precaution for parents to take care of their child
or children knowing where their old parents are, in case of emergency
sooner or later... everyone would be able to know e location of anyone
thanks to advancement, we now can know more
jus go to facebk or friendster, and u can check out ur frens bday, age, dob, personalities, etc etc

perhaps there will come a day
whereby we can put this "helmet-like" structure over one's head
and we'll know what he's thinking, what he knows, his past, his experience
there will come this day im sure...

i wanna to know what he thinks of me
i wanna to know what she's thinking
i wanna to know what they are gossiping about
i wanna to know...

we all do... we all do...

and when we do not know...
how often do we feel frustrated
our curiosity kicks in... e "i wanna know" shouts in our heads

we are human beings...

2008-12-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

e last 4 off duty was pretty amazing
meeting up and meeting up
hur hur

5/12 -
met up with daryl
after a pool session n makan with his family
went over to his hse for stay over
enjoyed all e crappy-ness n catching up

6/12
woke up at 6am n headed over to changi airport with daryl
(tts y i stayed over)
fetched jules from e airport
been long since i saw ya eh? HAHA
after which we went back to daryl's hse
n went for a gym session
WOOT! tt club was FAN-TAS-TIC!
OMG!
will be getting these club memberships nxt time when i grow up
HAHA!

left ard in e afternoon after lunch
met up with hm,fq,clara n kel at cine
idiots... bought some horror movie
in e end im like watchin e hand infront of me more than e show luh
RAHX!!!
DO NOT EVER EVER ASK ME WATCH HORROR MOVIE!!!

8/12 (ytd)
stayed at home
den went had a nice dinner at pizzahut with my family
$$$ fly away again >.<

9/12
afternoon went over to meet uncle ho from Jazz
omg... he kinda opened my eyes to e world of business
wad its all abt... got much to learn
>.<

yh joined me for e meeting too
den gave me some ideas here n there
kinda helping me with everything too =D

after which met up with jo,yuanwen,yitian n munkiat for dinner
wadever they were tokin... didnt seem to be from this world
i wonder if they r e one with wrong wirings.... or me...
zzz OH WELL
nvm... had some gd laugh n all

oh well
im starting to believe
as events unfold infront of my eyes
i believe this is my opportunity
e thing tt i've always wanted
it is materialising
it is so real...
moreover its a scale i've nt thought abt
but everything starts small
watch me grow
it'll grow

CHEERS =D

2008-12-03T15:07:00.002+08:00

hanged out with bros on sunday
had a great catching up session regarding each other
tho it was jus a simple makan n walking ard aimlessly
being with them can more often than not
temporary throw away all my frustrations
jus enjoying e company i hav with them...

went for CHIJ(TP) + St Margaret's + CHS band concert
shant talk abt their quality here
anw... after e concert... i thought back how long since i hav touched e trumpet
oh how i miss band...
how i miss playing the trumpet...
seems like e yrs spent training is all lost...
all tt reminds me are e badges n medels tt we've gotten
how i wish CHSSB can surpass my batch
but looking at e situation now... haiz...

met up with sid n kj ytd at sun plaza
pass by Jazz Collectionz to talk to joey's mom
suddenly im driven again
but all taking of pictures... i kinda lazy to do
arghhhzzz

its human nature tt we often look towards e past
e gd past
e bad past
how if things now can be like then...
how if this thing nv happen, wouldnt it be jus great?
"why" and "what if?"
these 2 have often haunt me
why did such a thing happened?
what if i was a day earlier?
why is he/she like that?
what if i'm dead, who'll be there for my funeral?
etc,etc...

let us stop looking back
abt e wonderful times we had
abt e laughter, fun and joy we had
stop looking at e present us either...
abt how we are now, no matter how nice or devastating

look towards to our future
it is a joy to plan for our future
n see it happening, unfolding right infront of our eyes
seeing is believeing, everyone knows this
but believeing is seeing too!
it works both ways...

our future is in our hands
if u believe in fate, then lets embrace this unchangeable fact of our future
if u dont believe in fate, then lets create a future which we can embrace
there is no cannot. there's only want or don't want

visionboard... maybe i shld make one too...

2008-11-27T15:11:00.003+08:00

eating biscuits at home alone
how romantic...

last duty sucked to e core
like whatever things i did were wrong
whatever words i said were wrong
dunno is it me or its just my luck...

sunday went out with huimin
been a while since i last seen u gal!
haha! jus walked ard vivo "aimless-ly"
had dinner at Terra
felt cheated by e sheer small size of e shepard's pie tt i ordered
i still love ta's mum's shepard's pie
HUGE and LOADS of fillings
yum yum~

after commander's parade on mon
went over to bukit timah plaza
met edmund, suwen and yueqi
took me dunno how to jus to figure out how to find tt place
zzz
played pool but my pool skills rusty liaoz >.<

ytd went to meet sid n kj for dinner at causeway pt
kj treated me to megamac
HAHA qte shiok =D
catching up with them n was sharing secrets among ourselves
hohoho
- thou shall say nothing -

after which went over to zouk to meet up with ta, claire, gerald n his gf n fren
first time went for mambo
was qte a fun night
got really qte high... probably coz of e drinks and... *ahem*
anw met qte a no. of frens there
frens from cat high, from aj like leon, kevin, ketsu, marlene
oh well...

alright... updates done!

2008-11-21T21:04:00.002+08:00

past few offdays were actually pretty awesome

monday
morning woke up by sms-es from edmund who wans me to pei him out so tt he can buy his stuffs. met him at city hall n walk n walk n found nothing tt he likes. HAHA
after which went over to amk to check it out at Jazz instead
haha he didnt get to buy wad he intended but got himself a shirt instead
well not a wasted trip at least lol!
after which i met up with fq, elieen n fren at amk lib
they were studying luh.. i was jus wasting my time there to wait till 8pm
at 8, went to meet e church cliques.
ta, gerald, claire n amanda
been long since got so many ppl hang out tgt
DAMN LONG ACTUALLY...
so went over to liquid kitchen n drank

wed - on duty

thurs
after duty went over to HQ to collect something
after which met yiheng at bishan for lunch
its his first time walking OUT since a month... woot!
congratz~
went home still feeling hungry n checked out online stuffs
visited ta and claire at yishun lib as well as collect my mp3
coz i left it in ta's bag e on mon... zzz
went all e way to orchard to meet up with kj so tt he can buy his 'welcome back' present
HAHA!
was damn tired n emo
but he very nice... treated me some cream puff n starbucks
LOL! thks =D

despite all e outings...
i gotta do HRCT and IPPT soon
damn sianz of it
n for no gd reason kinda got emo...
OSO DUNNO Y!!!
arghz~
sucks sucks sucks!!!

IRRITATING!!!

2008-11-18T19:27:00.002+08:00

dreading...
again this feeling
HATE IT!!!
any1 can relieve me from such irritating feeling?
so depressed feeling... such anxiety...
heart pumping faster than usual...
urghhh~~~

Dear God,
for the next 1 yr 3 months, grant me the strength to overcome all obstacles. the reality is such a rollercoaster ride that makes my heart tremble. "take it easy" is what i have to do. believing that "life will be better". next year would probably a mundane year at work. but a much more exciting year during my off days. with me studying for my liscence, doing the things that i said i would do (if i did do). energy seems to have sap away from me. i need to recharge, re-energise, re-motivate, reborn. bless me
amen

I am an Engaged Idealist

2008-11-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.

Adjectives which describe your type

extroverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, committed, likable, enthusiastic, responsible, helpful, loyal, diplomatic, friendly, inspiring, caring, solicitous, optimistic, effusive, adaptable, communicative, articulate, convincing, energetic, optimistic, open, vulnerable

These subjects could interest you

art, psychology, politics, honorary work, environmental protection, nature, travel

2008-11-11T19:39:00.002+08:00

identity crisis
when u go thru such drastic change whereby ur whole personality changed
or so u tink
hence who u were n who u r aint in sync
causing something like a "jet lag"
temporarily seeing urself as a stranger
and e qn pops into ur mind
"who m i?"

as one grows older
right n wrong seems harder to differentiate
"do e right things, dont do e wrong things"
how simpler can this get?
yet somehow... when i tink im doing e right things
it turns out otherwise
my mom always says
"ppl will nv see themselves doing wrong"
-until they've done it-

promises
wadever we promised
we shld always follow n breaking it is a NONO!
but how many empty promises hav i made
i can hardly count...

thinking back...
i realised...
its somehow always my fault...

[its not who you love tt's impt, but how you love]
[bliss or blessing?]

2008-11-06T14:25:00.003+08:00

a month has passed since i've entered
7months hav passed since i've enlisted
almost a yr has passed since A lvl ended
15 more months till i ORD
21 more months till i enter UNI...

IF i enter uni... if...

jus finished watchin "Corner With Love"
by Alan Luo n Big S
woah damn nice n sweet luh~
shld watch shld watch
well at least i was able to spend e whole day on something NICE
instead of doing nothing
or doing something tt's equaling nothing...

have been really really thinking of things accomplish in life
since i've enlisted i've been doing this non stop
perhaps its time to stop thinking
and start doing...

wld things ever be in motion???
ARGHH!!!

2008-11-03T17:05:00.002+08:00

10th duty tomorrow
after which things were said to be different
or has things alr changed...
i wonder...
i gotta start relyin on myself instead of troubling people with my things
gotta wait another 2 more months b4 e newbies arrive
whereby i can relax much more
whether how relax it is i dunno
which means e sucky part left wld b operational
since i've yet to attend to much real big case i daresay my experience is still qte limited
which is kinda bad...
i gotta buck up
i gotta buck up!!!

a yr since A lvl started
soon it'll b a yr since A lvl ended...
n probably a yr since i enlisted
OMG!
this yr has been a fast one
or rather...
EVENTFUL...
form jan till NOW
something has been happening
every month
from working to quitting to working again
enlisting till ERSC
even within ERSC still got hometeam, burnei, all e EX-es n tests...
and now station

so i suppose e nxt 1.5yr wld b less happening?
with me being in station... i doubt so
even more happening stuffs wld happen
more incidents to see
hopefully at least once a real fire

keeping contacts with frens wld b a challenge
but i wld see it as a goal n objective
and there are things i wanna to accomplish b4 i enter uni in 2010
things tt i wanna get
things tt i wanna do

be renewed~

2008-10-31T19:11:00.003+08:00

gg to update "long lost photos" to facebook after my nxt bookout
saturday duty...
was waiting for it...
slacky day... HAHA =D
tho waste my weekend but its relax =D
y? coz got OPEN HOUSE!!!

nxt time when i become senior... and im hav duty on a sat
come over to bishan fire station n hav a look at wad i do n stuff
hahha

gettin use to station life gradually
probably coz tt im gettin closer with e ppl in station
seemed like i was e only few tt had problems with station life
haha

[thoughts become things]

i miss band...
i miss e company i had...
i miss sch... (nt tt i miss hmwk or tests, bleahx)
i miss saying 'hi' to those faces whom im so familiar with...
i miss council...
i miss 29th ERSC...

a yr n a half later... i hope i can say...
i miss station..

hohoho~

i've FINALLY booked a date for my Basic Theory Test (driving)
alrighty
lets conquer this other part of my life
aim: pass all tests within e FIRST try =D

Cheers =D

2008-10-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since i last updated...
things r stil fine in station for now...
better i wld say
hopefully will become even better few more duties

i hate e night b4 duty
damn F-ed up
ARGHHH!!!!!
emo ragging...
pissed off easily
SUCKS!!!

until my station life gets better
i dun tink i can stop ranting...
arghhh

on a different note
got my warrent card now!
wahhaa!
tho nt really much "power" tho its a WARRANT CARD
can issue "fines" to companies now
wahhaa!

i hate station life
but since im there
better make full use of it
gg to make full use of my 2 days off
someway or another...

KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-19T19:47:00.003+08:00

being catchin up with frens during my offdays
ESPECIALLY during weekends
coz 2/3 of my weekends will be weekend
(ie either sat or sun is on duty)
so yupp

if your are free on weekdays
PLS do ask me out kies!

met up wtih sid,kj,kq,joey,ch @ amkhub ytd
ate fish n co, walked ard n finally settled @ coffeebeans
haha! catchin up with them and jus chatting takes my mind off things =D

met up with kel n fq tday oso
ho-hum...
i love to catch up

haha!
tho im tryin NT to spend AS MUCH $$ when i go out nowadays...
TRYIN...
zzz
gotta save up e money so tt i can get e things tt i wan!

too many things alr...
zzz

gotta be strong!
gotta BE strong!
GOTTA BE STRONG!

hopefully nt too hiong a day tmr!
and most impt-ly
ENJOYABLE!!
less kns stuff or NONE AT ALL!!! heh =D

till nxt time~

2008-10-18T12:42:00.003+08:00

wad a hell of a shift
went back CDA to help out for HRCT
met e instructors peeps
DUDES YOUR HAVING GD LIFE MAN!

3 "fire" calls (none of them were actual fires tho...)
one bags of cement spillage
totally messed up
two suicide cases
one kinda "ran away"
e other one was damn action!

gettin better...
gettin e hang of it?
NOT!
outside drill today morning (6+am)
was e D.O. OMG!
i wasnt even DO during CDA
-faint-
mission failed
all my man died...
zzz~

keep having tt image in my head!
its kinda working...

station is filled with 2 faces
if not TOTALLY!
even i am one of them...
sad to know tho...

e past few off days were qte nice n fun actually
hanging out
meetin out
lan-ing
pool-ing
only nv bball yet
oh well...
watched anime, drama, manga
lol!

i wonder how things will b like in a yr n a half time
when i finally ORD
wad wld b e "me" b like?
its unthinkable actually
with e environment im in
frens do remind me of how i was
if i've changed for e worse...
dun hesistate to tell me straight to my face
somethings can change
while somethings CANT!

~ while somethings cant... ~

2008-10-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

feeling loads better from tt emoish me
mayb i'l be in e emo moode everytime e day b4 "book in"
untill perhaps i get used to it
e seniors say i will...
will i???

thks for e early sms tt i receive on e way to station yesterday
it really brightened up my day
thank you again

keeping in contact has prove harder n harder each day...
as much as i try...
time dun really allow me to
and in a world suffocated with stress
be it studies work or r/s
we are often blinded of e love tt surrounds us
open up our eyes my fren
yes me included
no matter how bad things become
frens r always there for u
sometime even a stranger's smile can lift u from e depth of e valley
wad more can fren's words of encouragement
be glad... be glad...
be thankful

its not easy for me
but i'll try
i'll not sucumb to them
nor will i be confrontational
i gotta play my cards right
to be in e best possible situation
this i'll do

for those who hav ur own sets of problems
after being sore over it
take a step back n see wad YOU can do
and then take a big leap forward and get thru e piles of problems
its not gg to be easy
it probably be damn freaking @#$^@^ hard
but tts wad frens r for
to help n support
n dun tink u dun hav frens for support
all u gotta to do is to take e initiative n start ranting
yeah sounds kinda weird but well...
it worked for me =D

take care and good luck

Cheers my friends! =D

2008-10-13T20:28:00.002+08:00

we all fear for e unknown
we hate anomalies
ambiguities
yes
watashi wa is stressed
this is so aint like me...

finding some1 to tok to suddenly became so difficult
every1 seems to be havin their own problems too...
even as i try to tok to ppl...
things only get worse
and its not just one person or two...
they r irritated...
i oso got irritated...
y issit tt when ppl needed me...
i can be there
but when i need ppl
there aint any...

im nt tryin to blame any1
im jus ranting abt FACTS tt i cldnt do anything abt
here is e LAST place tt i cld rant
haiz...
even my parents dun understand wad im tryin to say
all they do is take it as a joke

there r ups n downs in life
now is my down

for those who did tried to tok abt my problems
ty very much
even tho when ur hav ur own
which i tink may be worse den mine
but ur still take time for me
i thank you
sincerely...

for those who hav their own problems
jus rmb to take care of ur own health n all
even tho i hav my own problems
if ur need a listening ear i'll be there
coz i understand how it feels like when u wanna find some1 to tok to but yet none is there
i'll be as patient as i can...
this i assure u...

for i am who i am
a sorrow bucket who swallows my own sorrows

im one who cant express myself properly
nor can i re-narrate my story
nor do i know where does my pekcek-ness come from
so....

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-13T11:02:00.003+08:00

nicknames

drofla - cre8-ed by myself. e OFFICIAL personal nickname!

sorrow bucket - erhhh no longer le ba i suppose... haha

meow (cat) - stupid morning annoucement

fairy - OGF game

sotong - i wonder y... >.<

binnie - coz i eat too much???

labourer - hmm... labour day... Zzz

you (yu) - loads of "you" jokes eh?

fish one child - "yu yi tong" chi name

yi tong (mahjong) - same as above

fordy - ferdie - ford - lazybums

frog - everyone MUST hav an animal within them...

tooooonnngg~ - this is one of e weirdest one i must say...

tat tong - eng teacher who cant pronouce my name properly

jus a random post at a random time on a random day

2008-10-06T21:31:00.002+08:00

do not live becoz of ytd
do not live within today
live for tomorrow, and beyond

ytd was gd
but u wldnt know if today or tomorrow wld be too
vice versa for "ytd was bad"
do not indulge in a memory tt is not reality
im not saying "forget e memory"
im jus saying dont implant e memory into today or tmr
not only will one be unable to carry forward
indulging in one thing is nv gd

do not believe in "happily ever after"
becoz tts not living
tts wad i call, living within today
whereby things do not change
and we do know tt change is the only constant
"what will be will be, what will not will not"
this is a -today- kinda thinking
it has been fixed... no changes in e future...
hence do not live within today as its wrong if not impossible

live for tomorrow
"tomorrow may not be as good or as bad as today or yesterday"
tt phrase is not true
"tomorrow will always be better"
and tts e truth, no matter how unbelievable it may seem.
why do i say that?
as long as human long for tomorrow
we'll seek for happiness
even tho tmr may nt be as gd as ytd
we'll continue to seek for tt thingy called "peace", "happiness"
with hope for e future, we'll seek
"seek and ye shall find"
and we'll find it
as long as we long for tomorrow

this i truly believe

amen.

[life is a show with your mind being e stage and you being e director]

[you live your life as you want it to be]

-drofla