thy blog is still alive...
im surprised...
after all these years
excellent...

systems are what control us
systems are what made us, us
systems are what that safeguard us from harm
systems are what that allows us to live in today's world
systems are what that made today's world

and these very system, are what irk me since i was born
now that i can see, pass the world, pass what they called reality
and i see myself standing infront of this huge system
the system that's so man-made that no one else seems to notice it
is it a fool to challenge e system?
is it even possible to challenge it in e first place?
i know i hate this system
but yet im powerless to do anything
but to follow the system...

or is it?

i can feel e air of ord coming...
after nxt duty... no more shit Proficiency Test!
no more... NO MORE!!!
just hand over properly everything i know
gotta chill and relax...
32 duties left... WOOT! (havnt minus my leaves)

took me 3 tries b4 i was able to log into my blogger
HAHA! tts e price i gotta pay since i nv update it for so loong

lets just say i'm happy
for how things have turned out

i was so worried that my decision was wrong
that my actions have caused saddness and nothing else
at least i know that things have gotten better
perhaps, things would have gotten better with or without my decision
maybe...
in anycase... i'm happy =D

met up with ah ma ytd for a short 3hrs chit chat
somehow... she always make me feel stupid... :(
haha! but it was gd as it allowed me to see better
perhaps i am kinda laid-back down here
not yet down to earth and be who i am
i have to grow up...
stop talking abt responsibility instead taking them up
i have to really look at my life and see what i really want
who i was matters not but what i will be does

what should a person life be filled with?
what should a person life be like?
maybe coz everyone's life different thats why we have disagreements
but we all have e same end, death
and even e same aim, peace within ourselves
happiness...
has life being complicated due to our complex world?
or is 'survival of e fittest' e reason?
tho 'fittest may have other names

searching for my own reason...........

Cheers =D

Gotta start thinking of ways to get my new blogskin
probably can get more motivation to start blogging HAHA!!

there are a couple more things that i have in my wishlist.. =D

1) New Specs
2) Custom made coporate set
3) Iphone 3GS
4) More fashion statements
5) Year end major project
6) Achievements
7) Old folks/Children homes?

i feel that i've begining to understand things that i never did
events happen for a reason, things go wrong for a purpose
these reasons, these purposes, are more often or not 'good'

okies enough of these grand theories... (ok maybe not grand)
i've new goals in mind! Things that i wanna to achieve
that wld probably help my mind to really start working instead of being idle

alright gotta go
commanders parade...
Zzz

it has been such a long time since u've last posted...
blogging seems like something in e past
but im determined not to stop!
so here i am back again...
(not that any1 still comes here anymore)

how's life?

things been a roller coaster ride
(seems like e case all e time)
ups and downs are part of life
[Life, is 10% what the world throws at us, and 90% how we react to it]
i cant say tt im reacting well but im tryin to look at it positively

had a great rant by e Merlion bay with Daryl e other day
been keeping too much inside of me
its a gd thing to get it out of e system
remove e toxin from within
lol!

been trying hard to catch up with some old pals
still trying... haha!

all's well, in short
stressed, yes i am
tired, yes i am
worth it, to some extend and hopefully

past few months have been life changing
next few months may be changing life

do you see what i see?

change is the only constant!

miracle do happen
while having lunch today with yh
he said, if we can have 10 ppl it'll be a miracle today
and e total ppl we had, was 20+

totally amazing
some ppl who said they werent coming came in e end
while some who said will come didnt come
HAHA! wad an irony

let recap this
me and yh was sitting down there looking at these human beings happily enjoying the bbq
and we both let a sigh of happiness and touched-ness
congratz to both of us

for e record
i opened up a cork in e bottle of wine using 2 satay sticks
no, i didnt thought of vectors of force
i just thought tt i can do it, and i did =D

i dun see myself gg to plan any of such outings again in e near future
i dun see myself in e big picture
mayb just small outings
like grps of 5-7 instead

gg home alone was time well spent
i got time to recall my feelings
to understand and find e meaning of them
paving e path i have chose since my decision was made

[man cant help others if he himself is not satisfied with his own life]

our perception of things greatly changes our feelings
and this perception can be altered by our surroundings, or by ourself

i had a fren who told me tt my emo post has been decreasing
e reason i find was becoz i've become just too lazy to type such posts out

[if you wanna the world a better place, you better look around yourself and make a change]

some of e closest friends i ever had
have become just so stranger
that i cant fathom what they are thinking
well that's probably coz we havnt been communicating

well with all due respect
even tho i believe i have a high level of tolerance
that doesnt mean i do not feel hurt-ed
and yea... i dids

when our eyes met
its like time fast forwarded as they 'jumped' away
its kinda convienent yet saddening
but im sure if e 'jump' dun occur, e lvl of saddness may just multiplied

for e rest of e stuffs i wanna to say
thou shant

take care and goodbye everyone =D

hasn't it been a while?
im so caught up with reading the comic 'One Piece'
haha! i nv tot tt RUBBER can become so interesting...
oh well~

been hanging out e last few days
gg ard like Singapore Discovery Centre, Hortpark, amk (as usual), pool, heading out to chill, coffeebeansssss, movies, pc show YEAH!!!
but tt oso mean tt e financial side has become a huge burden as well
HAHHAAHA!!!
damnit... gotta earn more money!!!
money makes e world go round,
and it definately makes ME smile! =D =D =D

more outings coming up
yea yea yea~

it has been long since i've last updated~
my first and LAST station is audit is just over
i wonder how much marks wld i get?
currently i'm incharge of building and maintenance in station
somehow this makes me kinda interested in buildings

e other day in causeway pt, i finally know where the FCC (Fire Command Centre) is
like wth man... after yrs in woodlands LOL!
and i saw the AHU room n i was like... yea... i know what's inside!
(of coz i didnt go in luh)
quite wth...

i was freaking talking to e security guard uncle at AJ e other day...
talked for like 30+ mins? with him telling me his problems with his kids
LOL! n we even took e train tgt to go home...
wow la~ excellent

went over to Johor ytd again
with pang hud david n rama
we WALKED to JB from the SG custom
wow~ not tt i wanna do it again, but i dare say
its definately FASTER than car/bus
except e motorcycles of coz...

short notes of what i've been up to e last few days
who says this blog is for you?
its for my future refences of how i was
heh =D

[SUCCESS is not HAPPINESS - HAPPINESS is SUCCESS!]
[What do we do between the time we're born till the time we're gone?]